forgot to post about every facet of my life
my brother walked in on me cutting myself lmfao, he came in to talk abt displaying our fanmerch and I just sat there bleeding from my arm onto a pad while we talked abt shelves and display lights
saw my psychiatrist and told him "oh yeah I read about my fav characters killing themselves/cutting themselves/having EDs and I write about that too and look at fanart of it" and he was like alright do you enjoy that and I said yeah and he was like aight then have fun
@zvoxal in my books. makes it easy to flip through and retrieve. I have an emergency one glued between the covers of one of my bibles. not even christian lol.
@omeotoris same and that makes me feel worse like I wish I could give this life to someone who actually deserves it instead of me π everything wrong with me is in my head and I guess genetics bc the whole fam is fucked but still
@Iypophreniac sorry for the late reply, I usually put the Vaseline all over the bandage and then press that down over the cut, I don't really apply it straight onto my skin unless the cuts are very shallow. but it'll always end up all over the wound, I use it to slow the bleeding a bit too
"it gets better trust me bro" you're not me dude π it's been almost a decade what am I supposed to expect to magically change after years of therapy and meds