Bro my algorithm keeps sending me long distance videos and I’m a sucker for each of them only making it worse 😭😭😭 it’s dumb, like who gave it that much power?
I hate how my hurt.. make me regress .. I hate feeling like I can’t love at my 100.. I hate holding anything but love.. yet, I know the emptiness to well
Lately, my theory for these retrogrades.. for myself personally have been seasons of solitude, and I can’t help but think it’s to have me clear for reflection or to have me open for a return, not that I am the return you know?? How could I be, and if so for who?
The part that aches, is that if I retreat into my solitude, I retreat away and out of other’s orbits. If it is others who reappear, why or what for? What has not been learned, what is unfinished?
Went from wanting to be a wedding planner.. to unfollowing bridal shops, to seeing dress after dress, wedding after wedding, all within months, and currently my algorithm is feeding a fantasy I wish to come true, and all for 2027..
God, I know your listening slow my eagerness. Make ready my heart, mind, soul, and body to be the wife, and mother, I need to be for my future spouse. You know where my heart lies, if I’m not called for the vocation of marriage, renew in me my purpose,