lau

23 | she/her | MDNI! pro recovery, basic dni | #edtwt | bmi 17.1 | gw: 56kg / bmi 16.9

[lau @lausdne]

so im on my way home from the girls trip and holy shit i knew im mentally ill but i didn't realize it was so shit:( just genuinely terrible how didn't i realize this before??

[lau @lausdne]

i was trying so hard to balance restricting but eating with them kinda normally, so i ate almost every time they ate just more fruits and veggies and i was still up to 1800s both day? even tho i felt like i was restricting pretty heavily, i hate it hereee

[lau @lausdne]

im gonna spend 3 days with friends at our lake house, this is the first time im spending days with them since im this deep in my ed (they know about it tho) and im freakinggg out. like, im planning on buying my safe foods, but how do i skip breakfast without being weird?

[The Pink King @DayalSami]

Call me a hater but I think living in a world where both trillionaires and global poverty coexist is a sign humanity has failed as a species

[lau @lausdne]

idk if im paranoid but we went shopping and i reached for the lowest cal milk and i swear they shared a "here we go" glance

[lau @lausdne]

im gonna spend 3 days with friends at our lake house, this is the first time im spending days with them since im this deep in my ed (they know about it tho) and im freakinggg out. like, im planning on buying my safe foods, but how do i skip breakfast without being weird?

[ru ♡ @ruscvre]

who cares

[lau @lausdne]

@Lylylimia ppl aren't tired of it but i am, like im literally running from everyone who keeps asking about how im doing/what im eating etc. i guess i didn't realize how much i hate it when ppl know im not okay

[lau @lausdne]

and like, i don't wanna always eat differently or anything:( idk im just nervous cause what if i can't stop eating and i eat every snack i can get my hands on and they'll know what's going on. it won't even be three full days tho, just from friday noon till sunday 4am, but still

[lau @lausdne]

im gonna spend 3 days with friends at our lake house, this is the first time im spending days with them since im this deep in my ed (they know about it tho) and im freakinggg out. like, im planning on buying my safe foods, but how do i skip breakfast without being weird?

[lau @lausdne]

@fungusplumbus my arm muscles specifically became so much more defined since im uw cause basically all the fat is gone from my arms

[𝒜‧₊˚♡ @strberryangel]

Oh im not hungry

[lau @lausdne]

im meeting a friend after work and she wants to grab a beer and eat something, which means i won't be able to go home and weigh myself before eating.. it's freaking me out more than it has any right to i hate his disorder

[evie 🪽 @evielaced]

#edtwt

[lynn ౨ৎ @omadhanji]

i feel like im acting “woke” saying this . .

i dont like how comfortable some of y’all on here are with recommending others to vape or smoke to supress appetite

[saanjh 🔮 @dontcrysaanjh]

why did i let myself get fat again

[lau @lausdne]

@bladeesgfoats vitamin c and d, magnesium and hair vitamins, sometimes vitamin b or iron as well

[lau @lausdne]

working with high school kids is so triggering bro, im thinner than most adults i see, but every high school girl is bmi 15s with no fat whatsoever😭

[lau @lausdne]

@WylersL her essential fat is basically gone atp too

[lau @lausdne]

@SrJr172111 @hum_dunkin 30g is half of what i need, if i can get that in one meal that's pretty good

[lau @lausdne]

@muewyo or if you do this right after a few days of binging and you'd lose a lot of water weight, but there's no way if you're already restricting and you don't hold that much water anyway