I am in a depressive episode of my life, but a sign of growth is that I kept it moving. I have an unending sense of anhedonia, fatigue, emptiness yet I keep functioning when it comes to my work, family, friends. I keep showing up for everyone but myself. and I am aware of it.
being suicidal doesn’t mean that I’m going to kill myself. being suicidal is having this inexplainable ache while you’re living. It’s waiting for your life to end, and wishing that you didn’t have to carry on. Having this ache, and incapability to feel happy living, doesn’t mean that I am going to kill myself; it just means that I wouldn’t mind dying
Do i have cut my wrist and be in psychosis for people to know I’m not okay cause i feel like being a stable depressed person is so hard for people to grasp