I just always tell myself like โahaha Iโm just soooo obsessed with food, like I just love food so much that I need to control what I eat otherwise Iโll be out of control ahahโ when in reality thinking about what you have/are going to eat nearly 24/7 is not normal
I think a lot of the time Iโm in denial about my ed and thatโs why I donโt come on this app very often. I donโt want to admit I have something wrong with me bc Iโve told myself for so long now that itโs a lie Iโm making up for attention
buying fear foods when Iโm at the shops with my friends then letting them sit in my cupboards for weeks and waiting for someone to go โhow have you not eaten them yet?โ ๐๐๐
Having an ED at 15:
-today is day 6 of my fast. i had one apple slice & ran 5 miles. still have so much energy, will end my fast next week maybe
Having an ED at 21+:
-today i ate 1500+cals. barely have energy to get mail. i will try not to eat tomorrow but will fail& hate myself