in all honesty, i’m extremely unsure i can live up to any expectations right now, it feels so extremely demotivating and i feel like everything i’m trying to do is so pointless
i don’t want to become a one trick speed player, but it feels like that’s the direction i’m heading towards.
i’ve been looking up to hybrid players like lifeline and milosz my entire life, but i just feel like my aim is nowhere near consistent and good enough to achieve that and it’s heartbreaking
choking and failing an 880 on lionheart really put it into perspective just how far away i am from playing hybrid maps, i literally can’t aim well enough to keep combo if it’s too hard
even before i had a couple month stint of playing consistency maps and choking on simple patterns (although i called myself the ‘best consistency four digit’), my aim never truly improved and i definitely noticed that. most of the time, it was just retry spamming a map until i got a good score
so over these next couple of weeks, i am going to push my aim as far as humanly possible and see how much i can do, my main goald being to get more consistent with 270b jumps so i can play things like stella-rium, and jet rocket so i can finally reach that goal of 700 or 800pp
that being said, if i fail to see any improvement (knowing how fast i improve), i don’t necessarily have an idea of where i want to take my osu!career. no matter what happens, i love all of you and i thank all of you for being a community i can come back to at any point in time
thank you
1989 pp off of 3 digit. i've gotten about 1300 in the last 2 months
so... theoretically i am almost on pace to reach 3 digit by the end of the year
doable?