Our Rabb alreally told us, It’s never going to be easy. So don’t bother about what’s happening to you rn. Shift your main focus to Akhirah. Doing that will lessen your expectations, heartbreak & worries about a lot of things. Cuz most problems are Dunya related.
Ibn al-Qayyim رحمه الله:
“If thinking positively of Allāh motivates a person to strive in righteous deeds and it prompts him, helps him and drives him to do such deeds, then it is sound.
If it causes him to be lazy and to persist in sin, then he is deceived.”
If it gets too much, just talk to Allāh. Tell Him how you feel, and tell Him how you want to feel.
Do it every night, and every time you feel empty. Allāh is there; never underestimate your turning to Him.