For me, one of my first physical ed symptoms was my fingers turning white from the restricted circulation and in my relapse, it’s my first symptom again. Comforting in a way.
“You look so small, your eyes so glassy. Sat prettily like a child would laze on a rock on a creek in a painting, left knee cradling your face….You look like a sacrificed lamb and I, the executioner…You stare at nothing unblinkingly.”