☆ meizie

this is a wasteland, my only retreat

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i don’t feel connected anymore, i don’t talk about my problems to people anymore im genuinely just so fucking lonely and now o just have constant anxiety i just

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i genuinely miss kyu she was the one i could talk to no matter what and understood me. now i don’t tell anyone about my feelings anymore and i feel so lonely in my own thoughts all i do is cry myself to sleep everything fucking sucks bro

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i just want to feel good enough

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@SpyQ_ @lucidpk_ @proutnik @Th0mKa @WockWarrior_ @valohabercisi it’s so weird when people do the “i wanna play with friends” as if val doesn’t have 10 other non ranked game modes to choose from

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@SpyQ_ @lucidpk_ @proutnik @Th0mKa @WockWarrior_ @valohabercisi why are u an immo player playing ranked with someone so low? that’s boosting. u are smurfing there is literally nothing u can say to not make it a smurf. if u want to play with low level friends tell them to get better or just play unranked.

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@EepyRacoonAgent @meizwis @therealtiredtv anyways i’ve been blocked again boohoo cry cry people who don’t know how to manage their own emotions and use their disabilities as an excuse coming at me with pitch forks

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@EepyRacoonAgent @meizwis @therealtiredtv note as i also have bpd and i worked fucking HARD to get where i am with my own emotions. so yes i think everyone is responsible for their own emotions on how they react esp if it involves another person

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@EepyRacoonAgent @meizwis @therealtiredtv if it was genuinely something she hated she would never go around unprovoked telling people how happy she was about having sex with him. why bring it up in the first place?

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@EepyRacoonAgent @meizwis @therealtiredtv i understand that but even me as someone with bpd i wouldn’t even TELL people about it. why would she even bring it up to these people unprompted? the most i would say is “yeah they’re great” but she told people they had sex and how good it felt when she didn’t have to say it

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@EepyRacoonAgent @meizwis @therealtiredtv he didn’t but she said “i told a few people because of how special it made me feel that i did something that felt really nice”also once again can we stop bringing up literally beating ur partner like hello

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@EepyRacoonAgent @meizwis @therealtiredtv also i just don’t wanna be on this account boooo

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@EepyRacoonAgent @meizwis @therealtiredtv if ur gonna keep replying can u at least unblock my other account or take it to dms im tired of talking through multiple different posts

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@EepyRacoonAgent @meizwis @therealtiredtv I. literally said yes i agree. but u don’t go around bragging about how good the tea was to people when he also just told her he didn’t want people to know and she talked about how amazing the tea was and how special she felt for drinking the tea when he wasn’t even around

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@EepyRacoonAgent @meizwis @therealtiredtv i’m not ignoring that i literally said it was a big miscommunication on both ends and yes he should of asked her first but given the circumstances after the fact it’s hard to say he saed bc how badly she wanted to do it AGAIN

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@EepyRacoonAgent @meizwis @therealtiredtv yes but do u constantly tell ur friends how delicious the tea is when they maker isn’t about? or tell them how bad u want the tea again?

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@EepyRacoonAgent @meizwis @therealtiredtv yes the one time she talked about that and he said he was sorry vs the million times she bragged about it, said she felt special, said she liked it, wanted to do it again with him.

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@EepyRacoonAgent @meizwis @therealtiredtv once he told her he didn’t want to be with her she completely flipped shit and got upset and then posted this doc. she leaked shit about pressure and that’s also why she got kicked off the dev team

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@EepyRacoonAgent @meizwis @therealtiredtv bro obviously but to even say afterwards that she enjoyed it and how good he tasted and everything else unprompted completely revokes it because she literally was talking about how good it felt THATS what i’m speaking of. until months later he didn’t want to be in a relationship