You need boredom. A lot of it. Start by going on walks without music. No stimulation. No distractions of any kind. If you learn to sit with your own thoughts, for long enough, in time they will start serving you. You'll start having ideas once again. You'll start developing an extreme sense of clarity that will shift you into the next stage of your life. All by being bored, which is pretty insane.
People who spend long periods of time at home & slowly lose the desire to go outside often think they're just resting. But psychologically, many of them are experiencing something called MENTAL RUMINATION. It's a state where the brain starts slowing down while the number of thoughts inside keeps increasing & the motivation to do anything slowly disappears. The mind gets stuck in the past, worries about the future and burns itself out. This isn't laziness, it's a nervous system stuck in survival mode. And the longer it lasts, the more distant normal life begins to feel. And the difficult part is that you usually can't escape it through one massive burst of motivation. And sometimes,recovery starts with just one small step.
Trust me on this: Possibility expands when you move. You meet someone because you went. Discover something because you tried. Find an opportunity because you asked. The world reveals doors to people in motion that remain completely invisible to people standing still.
Your lack of personal purpose is causing your romantic obsession. When your life is full, you're building something, you're learning something, you're creating something, you're serving someone, you don't have time to spend 4 hours analyzing why they used a period instead of an exclamation point. You read the text, you reply, you move on with your day. But when someone becomes the most exciting part of your life, every notification feels life changing, every delayed response feels personal, every conversation gets replayed in your head like it's game film. Suddenly you're looking for a hidden meanings in messages that were probably sent while they were waiting in line at target. You know, it's it's not that you're deeply in love. It's that your brain has nothing more compelling to latch on to. A relationship was never meant to become your identity. It should add to your life, not replace it. The healthiest people I've met don't love less. They they just have more to love. They have goals, they get them out of bed friends, they invest in hobbies. They're excited about purpose. So, you know ironically, that's usually what makes them more attractive too,because they want a relationship, they don't need one to to feel complete .So before you convince yourself that one person is the answer to everything, ask yourself a harder question if they disappear tomorrow what would still make me excited to wake up? Your answer to that question matters a whole lot more than whether they text it back.
My grandma asked me today: "If everyone in the world wrote down their problems and put them in a hat, would you risk grabbing one, or keep yours?" It changed how I see life...
I think being married someday is going to be one of the coolest things in the world. You get to come home to your favorite person every day, tell them the most random parts of your day, make dinner together, argue over what to watch, and slowly build an ordinary life that somehow becomes extraordinary.
this is actually my biggest issue with dating as whole. whole routine thrown off, habits disrupted, discipline tested just because you want to spend quality time with someone lol
i think the love you receive from someone who knows how to be alone is the most sincere. a solitary soul loves u by choice and not out of need for company