superfast jellyfish

In the scorn of the weather, my fickle heart fades

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"Hello?

Are you there?

I don't think I can do this.

I have to go.

Yeah, I'm sorry.

I have to go"

[superfast jellyfish @lpaskingbmth]

damn, it's today already? what's next? tomorrow? fuck everything

[superfast jellyfish @lpaskingbmth]

God, you know me. I'll carry every pain you allow but please, let me win this battle.

[superfast jellyfish @lpaskingbmth]

HOPE IS A MISTAKE IF YOU CAN'T FIX WHAT'S BROKEN, YOU'LL GO INSANE

[superfast jellyfish @lpaskingbmth]

Im losing a little more of myself each day

[superfast jellyfish @lpaskingbmth]

The echoes of your failures never fully disappear

[superfast jellyfish @lpaskingbmth]

@lThe_future However, this is not New Zealand's first World Cup appearance; they qualified twice before this, and this marks their third time.

[superfast jellyfish @lpaskingbmth]

Twenty one pilots said: I feel like garbage
And I felt that 😔

[superfast jellyfish @lpaskingbmth]

Fuck migraine, fuck my life with it

[superfast jellyfish @lpaskingbmth]

Never realised how badly running out of my migraine medicine would affect me

[superfast jellyfish @lpaskingbmth]

Before the good in me crumbles away entirely

[superfast jellyfish @lpaskingbmth]

I deserve all the pain and disappointment I am feeling rn,I mean it is my fault, I should've been better

[superfast jellyfish @lpaskingbmth]

And the hardest part is that some days, I don't even fight it. Some days I tell myself I deserve the weight of it. That maybe this is the cost of what I have ruined with my own hands.

[superfast jellyfish @lpaskingbmth]

Yeah, you were right about me
But can I get myself out from underneath
This guilt that will crush me

[superfast jellyfish @lpaskingbmth]

I hate myself

[superfast jellyfish @lpaskingbmth]

Why am I so sad?am I doing the wrong thing?

[superfast jellyfish @lpaskingbmth]

I miss the cats, I miss Lulu 😔😔

[superfast jellyfish @lpaskingbmth]

This is the weight of my conscience, this is our all time low

[superfast jellyfish @lpaskingbmth]

I wish I could take back time, and make it all alright, but here I am in the middle of the night being the fucked up I am

[superfast jellyfish @lpaskingbmth]

This guilt that will crush me