بیاعتنا به ظرفیت بدنم، حرکات ورزشی رو چنان بیرحمانه انجام میدم که آسیب جدی غیرقابل اجتناب میشه؛ این گزاره قابل تعمیم به باقی ابعاد زندگیام هم هست.
Mentally I need a big revelation on this whole overestimated matter of life. I'm done with all this anticipation as if things might eventually come to an ideal end.
I'm rushing headlong to find an unlocked door, a feasible path. All I run into is an abyss. I'm failing myself once more and I don't wish to survive this time.