After every session she emails me homework to do, which has been helpful. At the beginning of the last session she told me she’d send me some new things but after I asked for the referral she said she won’t be sending anything bc I’m looking for a new therapist. That was weird.
I told my therapist that I wanted to have more consistent sessions and that medication would be a las resort. We are on session 3 and she has suggested medication at every one of them.
I asked about specific trauma therapy because I truly believe a lot of my issues stem from unresolved trauma. She said she’s not qualified for that, so I asked for a referral. She seemed offended and later made a comment like, “since this didn’t work for you”. I never said that.
"You're going to end up living alone & with cats"
Being able to afford living alone and take care of animals...in this economy... IS THE BIGGEST FLEX EVER
and peaceful asf
As I’m getting older my features are getting softer, which means my makeup and hair color need to be softer as well. I can’t do black or dark brown dye anymore (too harsh) and I’ve had to throw away most of my lipsticks and eyeshadows and replace them with softer hues.
I hate when I attend a family function for a few hours and later that night when I’m at home my brain decides to relive every conversation to make sure I didn’t say anything I’d regret. Like, what even is that??
A few years ago I let my gray hair grow out for about 2 years (about 12 inches). I wasn’t too sure about it and a guy I had a thing for didn’t like it so I dyed it again. Looking back at pictures, the salt and pepper was quite flattering and made me glow. So I’m starting over.
It’s hard for me to grasp how much a human is supposed to endure in this life. The disappointments, the heartache, the losses, the grief…how? How are we supposed to accept and release these things? I find life unbearable sometimes.
The thing I always hate about going to any family's house is that women don't get to be guests. Men do. We have to immediately offer to help cook, serve, clean, etc. If not, it's not "polite." You're looked down upon for resting as a guest. I've never had guests in my home do anything.
Last night I foolishly took half a sleeping pill that my son gave me and I’ve regretted it all day long. I’ve been in bed and in the worst mood ALL DAY! Not to mention my appetite has been uncontrollable. Ugh. What a useless day. Should’ve known better.