does it ever fuck you up thinking about how old versions of you still exist to people out there. people you haven't talked to in years remember who you used to be and nothing about who you are now, and they're out there with memories of a version of you that kinda sucks
grief never goes away. the loss of someone’s presence simply becomes easier to accept with time. just because you accept this loss, it doesn’t mean it hurts less. things will remind you of them - it’s okay to cry or feel sad no matter how long it’s been.