maya (brief hiatus!)

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[maya (brief hiatus!) @mayasmaus]

hi! i’m maya, and i write smaus & fanfics for #loveanddeepspace. i often create nsfw content, so please mdni with those tweets! if you want to read my full works, check out the link to my tumblr in my bio🫶🏽 this pinned post will be a master-thread of all my works here on twitter!

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@calebs_captain That’s a hell of a lot of help, trust me. When I’m feeling this isolated in my pain, it’s so reassuring to have your support despite how shitty things are. Lots of love and hugs to you 🫂🫂

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As of today, my spinal nerves have officially become indefinitely affected. I can only move for very limited periods of time. Even sleep, which used to relieve my pain momentarily, is hell. All over-the-counter pain medications are ineffective. My left leg burns or is numb 24/7.

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I’m beyond exhausted mentally & physically, honestly. My back’s not doing so good (the herniations got worse since I’m not doing any physiotherapy + my work positions are awful) and I’ve honestly been struggling with depression again, probably worse than I did 5 years ago.

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@Vicky_Kujikawa Unfortunately there’s no postponing in our educational system. If I fail, I redo the entire year, and I haven’t got the mental, physical, or financial capacity for that. I need to find an alternative solution, something that could keep the pain at bay or keep it stable at least…

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@hydrangeajelly1 I can’t wrap my head around the fact that there isn’t some magic quick fix to make it all go away. I miss my life. I miss going out. I miss writing. I miss drawing. Most of all, I miss my friends, and interacting with you with so much joy. Thank you for everything 🫂🫂🫂

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I hate that I’m constantly complaining, but the past year my life has gone to shit. Nothing good has happened whatsoever. My disability worsening this much is only making everything else feel more awful. It’s affecting everything. I hate that I can’t recognize myself anymore.

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I’m only 23. I haven’t even graduated yet. I can’t get back surgery because dental work is physical. If I do get surgery, I’ll fail my final year. If I don’t, I’ll remain in excruciating pain that’s never less than an 8 on the pain scale, indefinitely. I’m scared & feel helpless.

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@overtureofdawn Robin my love, I truly hope it does, I’m not very well with grief I’ll admit…
يا رب آمين… و يرحم أمواتنا جميعًا🫂

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My apologies everyone for being so absent here. I lost my uncle two days ago, after roughly a month of him being in the ICU. I tried my best to visit him there every day despite my mobility issues, and he was conscious enough to talk for a bit, but unfortunately he still passed.

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@lilyofthecosmos Sending you many kisses Astrid🫶🏽

That conversation was beautiful, and his tears were as precious as gems when he found out that I snuck into the hospital after hours to see him when things were calm. I’ll cherish it forever as my last memory with him💗

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@imsoaezi You’re the sweetest, Aezi. Thank you for always being such a lovely friend, doubling all the love to you🫂

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@humblings_ Thank you so much for your support this entire time Alaya, and thank you for your kindness during these tough times 💗💗

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@lunaeticstar Thank you my beloved Ash, sending you many virtual hugs in return🫶🏽🫶🏽🫶🏽

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@endofdepths Thank you so much my love, tripling all the hugs & love and sending them to you💗💗

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@ly11560 W yrham gamee3 amwatna yarab 🫂

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@OnliaFaze We gotta celebrate the little wins! Thankfully you dodged that bullet this season🙂‍↕️ Back in October-November I was sick on and off for almost an entire month, but then I started making ginger and lemon tea daily, and haven’t been sick since!! Works wonders, I’m telling you!!

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@OnliaFaze I’m so glad to hear that things are calmer now. I was so worried about you & your health because I know how hectic things were☹️ And trust me when I say that all your lovely wishes are always felt on my end🫂🫂

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@OnliaFaze Thank you, my beloved Faith. I hope this winter has been even kinder to you through it all 💗💗

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@Vicky_Kujikawa Sending you back so much love Vicky💗

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@calebs_captain thank you lovely🫂