nicole

19 ♡ shedtwt ♡ hw:76.5kg ♡ cw:71.75kg ♡ lw:52kg ♡ gw: 54kg ♡ my posts can be triggering take care of urself

[nicole @meowbonez]

every so often I feel that my mental health is good but I want it bad again. because being well is unfamiliar and uncomfortable. and being sick is familiar and safer feeling. and yet I can never truly figure out how to get back to how sick I was. I always miss it dearly

[nicole @meowbonez]

does anybody else feel like fasting makes them very stupid

[nicole @meowbonez]

i love fasting idk, my body starts trembling in the evenings tho

[lunara @xlunarawr]

goals for this month :

• unhealthy body btw
• greek gods wouldn’t go to war for me
• gives the worst hugs
• flowers die every time i walk by

[nicole @meowbonez]

lore in my life is crazy rn

[nicole @meowbonez]

not even that insecure I lit just relapsed cuz i got depressed from my boyfriend breaking up with me and kinda having an unrequited crush on my best friend ugh i love her

[nicole @meowbonez]

anybody else randomly shit out little splashes of brown liquid when fasting..

[blu ☕️ @insomniacat__]

tired

[nicole @meowbonez]

i wanna relapse again. but i would be so evil to let my boyfriend see me like that again. i have recovered to an extent, and i love food now. it actually makes me happy. and again, i just wish it didn't, i wish it wouldn't matter to me like it didn't matter before.

[nicole @meowbonez]

@tarablogging hi Tara maybe this will help :) https://t.co/c72dabmIi1

[nicole @meowbonez]

@rottenskelly nicenice

[nicole @meowbonez]

i hate vocational training cuz wdym I'm busy from 6am to 5pm and go to bed at 10pm and have to write 10+ pages of just copying a textbook + other homework and still have a social life and go on walks and eat and hangout with my boyfriend

[nicole @meowbonez]

@riteofangel u can just buy new ones it can't be that expensive, right? I buy a pack for 5€ and a lighter for 2€. unless ur completely out of money then ggs

[nicole @meowbonez]

cigarettes as an appetite suppressant 😍
cigarettes to make me relaxed when I'm anxious 😍
cigarettes to make me boost my mood 😍
cigarettes when I'm feeling outgoing 😍
cigarettes when I feel lonely 😍
cigarettes when I'm bored 😍
cigarettes when I listen to music 😍

[nicole @meowbonez]

ate pizza and cake today for my bf's bday and i feel so bloated im gonna have to go for a run tomorrow or something

[nicole @meowbonez]

someone donate 300€ to me RIGHT NOW

[nicole @meowbonez]

I'm gonna get a smoker voice soon I swear I be smoking like 7 ciggies a day and my throat feels scratchy

[nicole @meowbonez]

clean body, clean soul

[nicole @meowbonez]

storing more fat in my thighs than butt is so sad cuz wdym my thighs touch but my butt's almost flat already

[nicole @meowbonez]

taking my meds again is a blessing I love socializing now