It needs to be studied how the entire diaspora was moving towards self love and seemingly every ethnic group has damn near derailed into the pits of coonery hell
My therapist told me that
"There's a theory that depression is sometimes the soul's way of rejecting the life you're forcing yourself to live. It's not failure it's misalignment. Your spirit shuts down when you're too far from your purpose, people, or path." And then it all made sense.