i wanna take recovery seriously even if i am being forced to it and try to eat whatever i want but at the same time i am having the intrusive thoughts about skipping meals and exercising while shes asleep mm :/
today my best friend s coming over and she s staying here for a week and we used to eat a lot together and try new foods n things like that so m as excited as anxious and it makes me kinda sad bc i cant starve but also i miss her n i wan 2 see her :(