true happiness comes from the acceptance of all things! though there are some parts where we never get through and always lingering back and forth about, its also a type of acceptance. let it remain and be a part of u then work on the balance. acceptance and balance are the keys.
but understanding the pain of reality makes us sober. being sober is worthy enough to leave every kinds of empty, sensory-stimulated and meaningless happiness resulted from ignorance behind.
God is freakin MERCIFULLLL. He wants you to be happy, and He will help sooo much along the way. Just focus on Him. You NEVER have to work hard to reconcile back to Him.