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EDNOS + ASD | i need impossible gentleness

[ray ⦻ @miningtown4]

i’d live in discomfort to make your life easier but i can’t stand the thought of you doing the same

[ray ⦻ @miningtown4]

i feel disgustinf im so sad and so sorry

[ray ⦻ @miningtown4]

it all comes so easy to you

[ray ⦻ @miningtown4]

im so jealous of other girls it borders on creepy and obsessive

[ray ⦻ @miningtown4]

i want to be cute i want to be cute like you so fucking bad i want to have friends, i want to have money, expensive clothes, out of country vacations, i want the energy and funds for hobbies i want so much i want so much. i want the privilege you have

[ray ⦻ @miningtown4]

@De4dGrrrl sooooo important 4 ppl to keep sharing stuff like this, ya we look different without makeup but we’re just as cute in different ways!! ur adorable

[mox @rudethehamster]

how it genly feels to write about your feelings

[ray ⦻ @miningtown4]

i want it to be fall i want to be able to take walks comfortably

[ray ⦻ @miningtown4]

i think once summer is over or at least my vacation relapse is surely imminent

[ray ⦻ @miningtown4]

not even a haircut could save me from being ugly this time holy shitttt its over

[ray ⦻ @miningtown4]

im so scared all the time

[ray ⦻ @miningtown4]

@ponyonadiet 🤤

[ray ⦻ @miningtown4]

@da1ntydeath claiming this

[ray ⦻ @miningtown4]

@hom0emo_ i did this so often as a kid that my perler bead tub was always full of cat hair and crumbs

[ray ⦻ @miningtown4]

@pinkaminaa my gf has been so obsessed with them, we’re going hunting for the in store exclusives on our anniversary tmr!!

[ray ⦻ @miningtown4]

i find it so hard to feel fulfilled in the day no matter how active i am

[ray ⦻ @miningtown4]

im gonna gain 50 pounds over vacation and everyone just has to love me and pretend they dont notice okaaaay? please pleasplesseplease please i’ll lose it all again i promise

[ray ⦻ @miningtown4]

i feel like i’m really praying for a relapse at this point but im also so terribly scared of being that sad all the time again

[ray ⦻ @miningtown4]

just gonna end up getting fat as fuck over vacation and starving through winter Again

[ray ⦻ @miningtown4]

wveryday it feels likw im eating a weeks worth of calories i cant handle recov anymore