wiredbeyondbelief 🎵🎧 (melody)

she/her 🏳️‍⚧️ | 24 | MDNI

[wiredbeyondbelief 🎵🎧 (melody) @miswired_]

@burnthelilacs Yay good luck

[wiredbeyondbelief 🎵🎧 (melody) @miswired_]

So scared of picking the wrong surgeon with FFS cause I’m most likely gonna have to pay out of pocket & also need significant work

[wiredbeyondbelief 🎵🎧 (melody) @miswired_]

Should’ve known I wasn’t a guy when I didn’t develop the urge to claim I’m 6’2 whilst being 5’11

[wiredbeyondbelief 🎵🎧 (melody) @miswired_]

@exoneratedcurl Yay good luck

[wiredbeyondbelief 🎵🎧 (melody) @miswired_]

@hayatifag Agreed

[wiredbeyondbelief 🎵🎧 (melody) @miswired_]

@_Cyn__Music For me skin softened & breast buds came in around the first couple months and then the actual growth has just been super slow/gradual. Maybe a little over a year is when they started to have like a round shape to them at times. Muscle atrophied gradually as well

[wiredbeyondbelief 🎵🎧 (melody) @miswired_]

@_Cyn__Music Can’t rlly speak to like facial changes but maybe 6+ months to start seeing a fair amount of breast development & other stuff. Maybe sooner for the initial breast buds to come in & whatnot.

[wiredbeyondbelief 🎵🎧 (melody) @miswired_]

Maybe a bit vain but I rlly hope when I get FFS that I’ll still be as attractive. I don’t think I’m like hot or anything, but my face has at least like decent features that probably would’ve been well suited for a cis guy

[wiredbeyondbelief 🎵🎧 (melody) @miswired_]

My dysphoria is social too bc I’m misgendered 24/7, but like just saying even if you popped my present physical form into a perfect world where I were treated as a woman despite my features, I’d still be unhappy w/ my face & want FFS

[wiredbeyondbelief 🎵🎧 (melody) @miswired_]

Not to like power scale dysphoria, but I’m happy in a way that my dysphoria is mostly physical/facial bc if I had a good FFS outcome I’d instantly be way happier. But also it brings a lotta short term suffering bc no amount of being indulged & correctly gendered makes me happy

[wiredbeyondbelief 🎵🎧 (melody) @miswired_]

Finally got the motivation to reach out to a therapist just for them to not respond

[wiredbeyondbelief 🎵🎧 (melody) @miswired_]

Idk how one manages to date in my present form cause girlmoding as is just feels like a CD humiliation ritual & obviously someone attracted to me in guy mode isn’t gonna like me after finding out I’m a trans woman 99% of the time

[wiredbeyondbelief 🎵🎧 (melody) @miswired_]

Dysphoria really is fucking me up as of late. Never felt more depressed and alone

[wiredbeyondbelief 🎵🎧 (melody) @miswired_]

Also just really tired of being single & having no dating life. Stuck in this shitty valley of like being unmasculine but not feminine that nobody’s rlly attracted to. I thought I’d have dated & experienced more of life by my mid 20s but life is just passing me by

[wiredbeyondbelief 🎵🎧 (melody) @miswired_]

So hard to decide cause like I only ever get one face. It’s a lotta trust to put in someone to hope they get it right.

[wiredbeyondbelief 🎵🎧 (melody) @miswired_]

Very split regarding FFS whether to wait till after nursing school & go to one of the more expensive surgeons like DB or use the savings I already have for QQ. Still kinda in a research phase regarding ffs

[wiredbeyondbelief 🎵🎧 (melody) @miswired_]

Is there something I’m missing? How is FFS with Dr. Qassemyar so affordable, it seems too good to be true

[wiredbeyondbelief 🎵🎧 (melody) @miswired_]

Just seen a video of a real FFS operation. This shit surgeons do is so cool

[wiredbeyondbelief 🎵🎧 (melody) @miswired_]

@girlcel_ Woah that’s awesome

[wiredbeyondbelief 🎵🎧 (melody) @miswired_]

Just heard of Dr. Qassemyar in Paris. We may be so back chat