the drug worked at first but eventually it stopped. I sat there awake, wired but devoid of euphoria honestly wondering what the fuck I was actually doing. I decided I was done. But by that point I was someone else. If you love an addict it's an unenviable situation for you absolutely cannot save them, you probably can't really even help them, all you probably do in such efforts is enable that's it. You have no other choice but to walk away because to do anything else is futile, could be harmful and you are no use to them if you go down by staying too long and being drowned by the chaos as collateral damage. Shame is of utterly no use at all. When we feel shame we are incapable of believing we can be any better and we sit a fester we do not improve. Self forgiveness and compassion is so important it is not saying what you did is ok it the act of admitting to your shitty deeds, taking responsibility and acknowledging that although none of it was ok, you are human you fucked up you can do better. Self reflection owning your ugly bits is empowering. When we see everything about who we are in the plain sight of day we can deal with it all so much better we can be better humans. When we stop spending all our time consumed by looking inward at our pain our needs our whatever and start looking outwards and considering others when we stop being selfish when we make sacrifices the world suddenly becomes so much bigger brighter and more wonderful. Relationships will keep us well you suddenly respect those you love rather than take people for granted and there are lines in recovery that you can no longer step over because you suddenly realise how fucking lonely and miserable that path was and if you are lucky so very lucky like me you realise too how much you have to lose and that is unbearable. You have a bad day? You develop other tools. the whole "fuck it I'm gonna get cooked" is just no longer something I could consider. Recovery is possible. Addiction is a lethal disease. I am no better that the addict who is still using still struggling, I really mean that, I'm not special. I'm just fortunate to have made it to a different point in the process alive. God only knows how. If I can do it anyone can.
Things the recovery industry will not tell you:
1. The drug worked. That is why people use it. Not weakness. Not moral failure.
A neurological event so complete and persuasive that any honest account of addiction has to start there.
The problem is not that the drug fails. The problem is that what it does is unrepeatable, and you will burn your entire life to the ground trying to get back to a place that no longer exists.
2. Shame is not guilt. Guilt says I did something bad. Shame says I am something bad. Guilt is appropriate. Shame is a cell with no windows. Most people use the words interchangeably. That mistake is lethal.
3. You cannot shame someone who has already named the thing you are holding over them. Say it first. Say it in plain light. The weapon drops.
4. Guilt can coexist with self-respect. Shame cannot. You can hold the damage and the dignity at the same time. I know because I live there.
5. Radical honesty does not give you back who you were. It hands you the clean slate of who you always wanted to be. The mask comes off. The cartoon other people drew of you stays on the page.
6. Nobody gets clean on a winning streak.
7. You have to be almost self-delusional in your forgiveness of yourself. (Go watch Chase Hughes)
8. The greatest sin was not the chaos. It was the absence. Being unavailable to the people who needed you.
9. Sustainable recovery starts with one thing: honesty with yourself. If you love an addict and want to help, that is the only door in.
10. I am only an expert on my recovery. Nobody is an expert on anyone else’s.
Wife says to her programmer husband, 'Go to the store and buy a loaf of bread. If they have eggs, buy a dozen.' Husband returns with 12 loaves of bread.
Brooke Rollins announces a Texas goat has been infected with New World Screwworm, bringing the total number of U.S. cases to 5.
This is the 3rd new infection announced today.
@BrianKarem@gabrielebrimav And let’s not forget he’s got the nuclear codes. If he can’t manage his anger at a reporter, he certainly can’t manage it if another foreign leader pushes his buttons.
Dear @WhiteHouse: Apologized yet for cutting the programs designed to prevent screwworm outbreaks?
DOGE was a massive failure. The people involved were arrogant, naive and lazy. They had no idea what they were doing.
Oh, and the deficit and debt increased as well.
The average lifespan of a female screwworm fly is 10 to 30 days, once they lay eggs in an open wound they hatch and the maggots feed for 7 days before dropping to the ground, burrowing into the soil and emerge as adult flies.
Tell me then how can the first screwworm case detected in the US on day 498 of the trump presidency be Joe Biden's fault???????
Ivanka Trump:
"We were on a friend's boat, stopped for a swim. We swam to the island. Went on a hike barefoot to the top. We were captivated."
Then they bought it. $1.4 billion. Through Kushner's firm.
Saudi money. 3,600 bunkers. 10 miles of nuclear tunnels. No sand. No beach. From a romantic swim... to a military deal. What are they building?
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"There’s no reason to elevate isolation when we can celebrate families across our state who might not look like a mid-century magazine spread but who center loving, supportive relationships every single day," guest opinion columnist Katie Blair writes.
Read more: https://t.co/E0h7eiQXVP
RFK Jr. spent years pushing the lie that vaccines cause autism. Today, CDC reports 2,030 measles cases this year, more than in all of 2024. And after he hyped vitamin A as an alternative measles treatment, a new report finds a surge in vitamin A poisonings. Misinformation doesn't just spread. It hurts people.
This is the type of shit that needs no words to troll itself.
This is actually real… he’s really posting infomercials plugging this…
Using America’s 250th Anniversary too…
More like… “As my dad tanks the economy as fast as he can, nothing is more patriotic than getting your hands on some Don Jr Gold to celebrate America’s 250th Anniversary in case it’s our last”
This is SNL material or even better #smokefleet material