muddlepuddle

Navigating an adoption fog. Rudderless ship. Moving on. Lurking mostly, enjoying the view. new to Twitter

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@neithskye @iamadopted I’ll happily show how imaginary my trauma is for her. I’m not grateful I’m devastated even though bp’s are worthless and didn’t want me.

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A friend who is also part of a separation sibling adoption has just been told that her sister is being returned to foster. What do I say to her? Other than life is shit? Fucking hate this for all involved #adoption

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Left social media. All got too much. Finally remembered my passwords other wise I would have come back sooner. How is everyone? Did I miss anything? 😬 #adoption #fogwastoothick

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@JenStevie1 You’re not a failure. You’re here. You’re alive. You’re passionate. You’ve helped so many understand incredibly complicated feelings. My thanks to you.

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Talking about mental health and I casually said well everyone feels like everyone would be better off with out them sometimes. Apparently not. Is that right? #mentalhealth #adoption

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@MaryDanroth Yes I love to be surrounded by the noise of nature. If only it would stop raining. But matches my mood.

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Ok. What do my fellow adoptees do to get yourself out of a slump? I dont want to bother anyone irl. I try to keep myself closed off. #adoption #adoptee

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@AdoptionUK @BBCRadio4 The only reason we were separated was money. We could have stayed together in foster care as we were too “difficult” to adopt together. No wonder we feel worthless.

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@CatTheresaUK Makes total sense. I’ve been feeling very similar things. I’m a living shadow.

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Been quiet, been lonely. Kinda want to fade away. #adoption #depression

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@JnxOuaquaga Difficult isn’t it? 💔

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@MaryDanroth Thank you.

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@saturdayobrien 💓

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@rocketgirl3914 Thank you

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@Beavoice26 We can but hope xx

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Thank you everyone. I think it’s a post Xmas reaction. Always a struggle. Xx

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@neithskye Seems like you want to do protect yourself/others but you’re held back by things out of your control.

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There’s two cheese boards in my fridge and I can’t have cheese on toast??? FU Xmas. #christmasfood #notyet #ChristmasTraditions

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@JnxOuaquaga @Muireannin1 @Intolwoods @JenStevie1 @penniemoney @CarlsonNikki Ah I did wonder why I got blocked by a few people. I had no idea what went on as I never saw anything.