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are your teeth tingling?

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do you wipe or do you let it crust

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at least thats how it is when im alone at home and i have nobodys input toward how im living. i never ever act like this otherwise

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i never really understood before but not eating because of outside mental illnesses vs not eating because of solely an eating disorder is so different and genuinely fucking frustrating

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my thought process is always just "dont eat until ___oclock it will feel satisfying if you eat then" and thats been how it is. for a good while now

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not even eating disorder related… but i dont feel comfortable talking about it on my other accounts

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ahhh i have eating problems ahhhh i have eating problems

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WHY IS EATING SO HARD I DONT EVEN HAVE AN EATING DISORDER IM JUST BEING A SILLY GOOSE.

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in case anyone was wondering mika and i have been dating for a year and a half and have been constantly spending physical time together and plan on moving in together 🙂‍↕️🙂‍↕️🙂‍↕️ it gets better ok

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all i know is im struggling a lot at this current moment and it does not feel good when it isnt voluntary

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i dont know hat changed in my life but i have zero desire to eat or drink anymore i think its probably just my meds and its a side effect that will go away eventually but ive never been so unenthusiastic to eat or drink anything in my life

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its not even an eating disorder thing i just am trying to buy things ill enjoy eating and drinking it doesnt work im just not hungry or thirsty. theres definitely a mental component but its more ocd related than ed related

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i feel like i was only made to suffer

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why am i so difficult to love

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my appearance is neve ever complimented because im ugly i wish i looked alright enough for anyone to want to comment on the way i look

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i wish i was able to get help that didnt feel like im in trouble or being punished everything feels like such a nightmare i wish i was able to like myself and help myself

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so sick mentally and just spending my whole life ruining everyones life and scaring everyone and making things harder for everyone and on top of that im also disgustingly fucking ugly i hope i get run over and then my dead body gets made fun of for being revolting to look at

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often times i feel the need to purge even when my stomach is empty to purposefully exhaust and sicken myself and have an excuse to feel bad

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ive lost what maybe 25 pounds in the past 8 months and im disgusting despite suffering so much mentally ive made so little progress nothing means anything