currently going through my old finsta (before finstas were a thing) & its bittersweet. im looking through all these posts from 2 yrs ago with all these interactions with people i no longer speak to. and im sad. but im also happy
i miss being on here but i feel like i dont βgravitateβ towards going online bc everything feels different with everyone from the beginning of tour till now? like ever since shawn stopped being as active a lot of people (including me) also did & thats really sad
though i told myself i was bc i didnt want to look like i was just βfakingβ not being okay. also how i used to go online for hours and hours a day and how ive now realised i dont have or feel the need to do that anymore, that iβve grown from that.
though i told myself i was bc i didnt want to look like i was just βfakingβ not being okay. also how i used to go online for hours and hours a day and how ive now realised i dont have or feel the need to do that anymore, that iβve grown from that.
like i LOVE where i am right now and wouldnβt change a thing about the present day but looking through that account made me realise how dependent i was on shawn & the fandom and basically the internet. and how i really wasnt actually mentally okay even