nickie

TW ed, 23 yrs, they/them

[nickie @mylifemycanvas]

i wanna die but i don’t wanna die if i’m not at my goal weight you feel me

[nickie @mylifemycanvas]

@UNST4BLEPSYCHE @anemicbabe omg hi 6'1 friends !!!!!

[nickie @mylifemycanvas]

i feel like i'm high off my ass right now but i'm actually stone cold sober why do i feel like my body is on a whole different planet than my conscious

[es·sen·tial @twinquotes_]

no suicidal shit or whatever but sometimes i look at this world and just don’t feel like participating

[milly ❁ ❀ @millyisliving]

your eating disorder is valid even if… 🧵

[nickie @mylifemycanvas]

@nwncals not me forgetting what my username was and having to check

[nickie @mylifemycanvas]

@WhyeatThins happy birthday !!!!

( also, i am 23 and that was my exact weight today so seeing this on my tl surprised me hahaha )

[nickie @mylifemycanvas]

literally 10 minutes ago i shared part of my trauma narrative with my therapist and they started crying and i was like "oh...." maybe this was worse that i thought

[nickie @mylifemycanvas]

NEW SAFE FOOD dudes i just mixed a sugar free chocolate pudding cup into some unsweetened Greek yogurt and a little stevia and it tastes absolutely phenomenal and is high protien and low in cals ?????? amazing

[nickie @mylifemycanvas]

@coqonutcals @zarahcalz omg WAIT was it good ?? i've been looking for something like this but can never find any without meat

[nickie @mylifemycanvas]

@zarahcalz cavatappi with cream sauce, sauteed spinach, and pumpkin bread

[nickie @mylifemycanvas]

@mentholxbitch also i used to be vegan and hopefully will be again soon. and i love incense but have an intense fear of starting the house on fire so don't use candles or incense

[nickie @mylifemycanvas]

i just hit a new lw ??!!!!!!?!!!

[nickie @mylifemycanvas]

@pintojeao i'm 125 but i feel 140. 140 is near my set point weight and somehow no matter how much weight i lose i never feel any smaller

[nickie @mylifemycanvas]

@x0in_ safe food - protien shakes
beverage - black coffee
gum - mint, but i rarely chew it cause i have teeth problems :)))))

[nickie @mylifemycanvas]

@f4irycanc3r ... whichever men's cologne is on sale / cheapest at Target 😅

[nickie @mylifemycanvas]

@ki11yourzelf vegan Margherita pizza, pancakes, mint oreo thins

[nickie @mylifemycanvas]

@scpmoony trauma, anxiety, gender dysphoria, and many years of undiagnosed neurodivergence

[nickie @mylifemycanvas]

@sickdoIl omg i need to know what hatches

[nickie @mylifemycanvas]

@diorcoquette @sk_innygirl1 i meannn my ugw will be bmi 15.2. i think i probably wouldn't want to go below 13 bmi. cause as a 6 ft 1 in afab weighing below 100 pounds would probably be a death sentence