Nikki

Nikki G is a Certified Trauma Recovery Coach who supports religious trauma, narcissistic abuse & cult survivors.

[WMIII @WilliamMatt22]

I’ve been saying this for about a year now… the depths to which this man used the prophetic to corrupt all the souls of everyone impacted by his ministry has yet to be understood. I’m still seeing friends espousing his philosophy and biblical interpretations.

[Josiah Hawthorne @JosiahHawthorne]

My wife and I did this on our honeymoon.

…two weeks later we discovered what “cryptosporidium” is.

[Rick Alan Ross @RickAlanRoss]

https://t.co/NTBmwfysBs

[Hunter Jones @Jhunterjones]

Some benefited from IHOPKC toxic culture and now have ministries. It's time to speak out and identify those toxic elements. Silence implies complicity, and it's worth considering if you still benefit from that culture. #ihopkc #mikebickle

[SurvivorsDiscuss @SurvivorsPod23]

Deconstruction and religious trauma spaces tend to be very white-centric (even though BIPOC voices have been discussing these topics for a very long time), which means resources aren't always getting to the people who need them. 

Be sure to check out @nikkigspeaks_ and share!

[Nikki @nikkigspeaks_]

I am grateful for platforms like @SurvivorsPod23! They are creating space to have the difficult but necessary conversations regarding cults. If you aren’t following them, I encourage you to do so. You will find conversations that speak to the heart of survivors.

[SurvivorsDiscuss @SurvivorsPod23]

It is a true honor and a privilege to bring others along with us on our healing journey, as Nikki so eloquently states on episode 6 of the Survivors Discuss Podcast. 

Learn more on the Survivors Discuss Podcast:

https://t.co/kBeAXgsuUw

[SurvivorsDiscuss @SurvivorsPod23]

You do not owe anyone your story. 

But if you choose to share it, in ways that feel safe for you, you might just find that someone out there finds peace in knowing they are not alone.

[Ben Anderson @benpanders0n]

A little journey through Mike’s history 👇🏻

[Steven Hassan, PhD @CultExpert]

Cult involvement is NOT restricted to average people in the general public.

Many wealthy people and celebrities have been targeted and fallen victim to cult involvement!

Remember, bright, talented people—often from good homes and with higher education— can fall under the control of a cult.

What celebrity cult involvement are you aware of?

[WeWereAllGroomed @AllWe28310]

#mikebickle stole from everyone at #ihopkc. He stole our loyalty. He stole food from the mouths of our children and he stole time with our friends and family. He stole our education and our careers… and of course he stole our money and the money of our family and friends. Thief.

[IndoctriNation Podcast @_indoctrination]

(COMING WEDNESDAY) Nikki G. is a Certified Trauma Recovery Coach who helps survivors recover & thrive after Religious Trauma & Cult involvement. She is also a survivor of multiple narcissistic relationships, religious trauma, as well as a former member of multiple
cultic groups.

[IndoctriNation Podcast @_indoctrination]

Surviving The Black Church w/ Nikki G. - IndoctriNation Podcast

https://t.co/gqn9tFJ5zr

#spiritualabuse #religioustrauma #blackchurch #cultsurvivor #cultrecovery #podcast #cults #religion

[SurvivorsDiscuss @SurvivorsPod23]

Our latest episode is LIVE!

We're diving into cults: why they exist and how they manage to exert such control over their members.

We're joined by experts @Janja_Lalich and @nikkigspeaks_ who share their experiences and insights with us.

https://t.co/9ljHnQeCQX

[Nikki @nikkigspeaks_]

Enjoyed this conversation immensely! Y’all check out the new episode of @SurvivorsPod23

[Clare Heath-McIvor @clare_mcivor]

New episode of @SurvivorsPod23 is now up! This time, Shari, Cait and I are joined by cult expert and Netflix documentary veteran @Janja_Lalich, and self-confessed cult hopper and recovery coach, @nikkigspeaks_

Let's talk about cults, baby. They're not always religious!

[Susan Danielle @realprophetguy]

I just want to say to all the IHOPKC folks transitioning: I know it’s hard and I’m sorry.

I am 17 years post IHOPKC (and another church trauma too). There was a lot of unraveling I had to do. It came in waves.

When Isaac Meyer said he was “a son of the prayer movement, and intimately familiar with complex grief,” I cried even all these years later. He captured the feeling perfectly. I still feel it, even after all these years.

I was 22. I remember, a little after we left, feeling like the ground had split underneath my feet and was opening up to swallow me. I had panic attacks, felt like the room was spinning. I didn’t have a name for what I was feeling then, but it was terrifying. I felt almost frantic, like there might be a fatal wound to my faith.

People warned me constantly, like they could see it too:

“Just hold on to your faith!”
“Don’t let go of your relationship with God!”

…as though someone absolutely gutted and tossed overboard has the ability to swim all those miles back to shore.

Nobody talked about religious trauma then, but it’s real. It takes time to sort through and heal—I just want to validate that.

It’s ok to be angry. It’s ok to grieve.

You gave years of yourself towards something you believed in, something that represented the good you wanted to bring into the world. You poured out very real, beautiful love. Who you are and what you gave had value, and it is RIGHT to be angry that is was exploited.

Mike got one thing right: he knew how to find people who were exactly what he wasn’t: tender, self sacrificing, willing to lay everything down for the sake of love.

Hold onto that good inclination inside you—the part that longs for wholeness, justice, beauty, life. That was absolutely real.

You’re going to want to examine your theology. You’re going to want to cling desperately to some things, or burn everything down, or avoid it, or relentlessly and aggressively reform it to keep yourself safe. I did all of those things. Some of it was helpful. Some of it was just fear.

I want to tell you two things:

1. There are some things that might need to die—don’t be afraid of death. Grieve them deeply, but let them die. If you throw yourself into trying to save those things, you’ll lose the life that’s in you. Anything can be resurrected and transformed, right? “Unless a seed falls to the ground and dies, it remains a seed.” Don’t run from it. Trust that there’s life on the other side.

2. The only way I know through that fear is to move towards love — the steady kind of love that stays present when it’s difficult. The kind that acts on behalf of others even when it has a cost, and holds space for the process of anger and grief. The kind that looks like people who protecting the vulnerable by holding their own accountable; who choose humility in order to move towards healing, so they can love more fully.

Look for the kind of love that’s willing to embrace vulnerability. Embodied, unarmored love. The kind that builds people, instead of using people to build a kingdom.

That’s where life is.

[candiceteets @candiceteets]

If you are transitioning out of IHOPKC, & don’t know where to start, I would be happy to help with a resume, cover letter or advising for schools. This is literally what I do for a living & I would be happy to give you support. #ihopkc

[Darren Hibbs @DarrenHibbs]

Thoughts on @matthewcandler and Isaac Bennet's Meeting last night:

1. The seeds of distrust that were sown that have caused donors to bail were sown by you refusing, over and over again, to do the right thing. You have done nothing but lie, obfuscate and refuse to allow an investigation.

2. The fact that you said "the anointing that IS on Mike's life," is sick and twisted. The blindness is otherworldly. If IHOPKC wasn't a cult before (my jury is still out on that), it most definitely is now.

3. Like Boz has already commented, you are now rushing toward outright fraud, in full public view.

4. Whatever #IHOPKC has been known for in the past, they will forever be known for SA, lies, coverups and as a cult forever in the future. Whatever name it goes by will make no difference.

5. Whatever you change your name to, I will speak out against it. As long as there is no repentance, no accountability and any of you leaders who have disqualified yourselves by spiritual abuse continue in Christian ministry, I will continue to speak.

[starcazm @starcazm]

Very glad to hear this recording.

As someone who has heard these guys leading meetings for 2 decades now, I am blown away they are still so bad at this.

Qualifiers, word salads, cult lingo, spiritual bypassing, Bickle-isms, references to the Prophetic History etc.

A half hour of rambling to say without saying:
“You don’t have a degree and you don’t have a job.”

[Rick Alan Ross @RickAlanRoss]

Frightening to think that neo-Nazis are stalking journalists to shut down their investigative work. https://t.co/S2DWPsFsJc