❛elio✰

✰ 19 𖦹 non edtwt dni 𖦹 he/him, ftm 𖦹 autism, adhd, bpd, cptsd, bulimia, arfid & dissociation disorder ✰

[lunara 🐈‍⬛ @xlunarawr]

goals for this month :

• unhealthy body btw
• greek gods wouldn’t go to war for me
• gives the worst hugs
• flowers die every time i walk by

[❛elio✰ @nocalstae]

does anyone have experience with started fluoxetine specifically for purging? im scared that it will help but at the same time im scared it won't.
if it helps with the impulses both for binging and purging maybe ill have an easier time starving.

[❛elio✰ @nocalstae]

@evoliqt so real except this happens to me EVERY time I eat anything
(I suppose that's why im a diagnosed bulimic lol)

[❛elio✰ @nocalstae]

@evoliqt thank you :( <3

[❛elio✰ @nocalstae]

purged and then paced in my room for 3 hours but then I talked to a pfleger for 40 mins and he was really nice although he did say "it's not that bad" but as a joke apparently

[❛elio✰ @nocalstae]

@evoliqt yes sure i can try that's a good idea, preferably maybe like on the day I get weighed (that's on tuesday I think) because im scared to eat the days before I have weigh-in lol :]

[❛elio✰ @nocalstae]

@evoliqt nightcore slays

[❛elio✰ @nocalstae]

got weighed im almost back to my hw from today it's speedrunning weight loss again like I always do inpatient. should work well for some reason my appetite/cravings completely dissappear when I'm in the psych ward.

[❛elio✰ @nocalstae]

I have purged so much the past few weeks I have such bad acid reflux and heartburn

[nova ⭑.ᐟ @fatbeyondrepair]

hating your body doesn’t make it okay to hate others btw

[❛elio✰ @nocalstae]

@evoliqt I see you ml, you are sick enough and I am always worried about you love♡♡
eds are serious and im sorry no one is seeing that.
in my opinion complimenting people on weight changes is an absolute no go and I feel like it's weird people are doing that.
I will always be here.

[❛elio✰ @nocalstae]

inpatient starting today so I can starve in peace since they don't give a shit. in these 4 weeks I'll lose as much weight as I possibly can.
last time I was inpatient for longer I lost 15kg.

[❛elio✰ @nocalstae]

going to be inpatient for 4 weeks it's so easy to restrict in there which is good cause then ill finally lose weight again.

[❛elio✰ @nocalstae]

TW blood.
the type of shit I used to take pics of in my eyes only.

[❛elio✰ @nocalstae]

I need more scars rahhh

[❛elio✰ @nocalstae]

I relapsed. before I hadn't cut myself in almost a year (just scratching and hitting & bashing body parts against the floor/wall and burning).
but I bought razors again.
this is my downfall fr I used to be so addicted to cutting i cant do that again.

[❛elio✰ @nocalstae]

I used to have to get stitches every other day and it was so bad id cut myself in public, in the toilets at malls or cafés, at school.

I think i got triggered my scars fading. also they aren't that bad because I got stitches on a lot of them. so I feel like I need more.

[❛elio✰ @nocalstae]

purging sucks i hate it i wish I could just not eat instead
it makes me dizzy & nauseous af