Maybe I don’t let myself feel the pain of losing someone because I do nott want to fall in that dark hole again maybe it’s a trauma response or maybe it’s cuz I’ve understood that death is a part of life
Another weird thing is that, when I hear that someone has passed away, I don’t feel sadness, i feel like oh ok they’re just in barzakh like they’re still alive but in a different world and a better world than this dunya.
The weirdest thing is that, I don’t feel sympathy for other people anymore. before I used to care and feel bad for people and what they’re going through but now I really feel nothing idk of this is a bad thing or good..
Life is temporary, because of this I’ve lost my excitement for the future, at this point I’m just finding things to do to pass time on this earth and reach my way to jannah, In Sha Allah see you all there😘😘
Ngl I don’t remember who I am anymore everything feels like a dream nothing feels real.
I’m posting this here cuz I’m hoping one day I look back at this and see how far I’ve come I love you future me.when you get out of this, remember u can get out of anything❤️
When he left, I lost him and I lost myself, he took a part of me with him so I feel empty now, maybe I’ll be okay or maybe I’ll learn to live with this, both options are gonna be tough but Allah (swt) has my back
Before I thought I’m depressed just cuz I used to be sad sometimes, now I realised that wasn’t depression, I would do anything to feel that way again because the place I’m in right now, sadness Isn’t just in my heart it’s in my whole body the pain is so strong
Sometimes your heart hurts so much to the point you change yourself but that change and that pain might be good for you, everything happens for a reason yea
The day before you passed away, I couldn’t sleep I had a gut feeling that something was gonna go wrong , I was so connected to you to the point I knew something wasn’t right, that shows the beautiful relationship we had ❤️ inshallah I’ll meet u in jannah again
I’ll feel your touch through the sun shining on my skin, I’ll talk to you through the moon and the stars, they’re the closest to you, I’ll look at beautiful flowers and try to imagine what a beautiful place you’re in and Everytime I laugh, I’ll remind myself this is what u feel