when ppl are coming out of a depressive episode, one of the most common self-reports is that a gust of wind *feels* like something again. So often it’s a gust of wind, evoking something that had for a time been lost. Again & again ppl say this
okay, real lessons I learned from hating myself:
when you exist in a self hating relationship, there is no surface area for other people to interact with you. You are faced inward towards yourself, and the only way that they can interact with you is by wrapping around you
People be out here thinking self soothing means dissociating. Self soothing is NOT distracting ourselves from our emotional experiences. It is being present through the emotions until we feel safe & have guided ourselves back to peaceful internal baseline.
We can be present with feelings w/o letting them dictate our behaviors. When we have an emotion our initial impulse may be to solve it, seeing it as wrong. This is a form of self disavowal which is hurting ego integration. Let it exist neutrally as you would an errant thought.
Reverting to logic over emotions and avoiding authentic intimacy are forms of bodily disavowal. You may not recognize it in your pursuit of perfect reason, but when you are stuck in a pattern you dislike in life, consider that your body sensations may need (and deserve) a say.
Self hatred is self propagating, and it’s really difficult to sidestep the downward spiral. You criticize yourself and create a pallor around you of negativity. You see the imperfections in others, and it biases you back towards yourself about everything that is wrong.
anyway if you want to have a great deal of love in your life it’s going to take intention. save birthdays, set reminders, check in, show up, send postcards, write letters, invite people over even if they keep not showing up keep making them feel welcome. try! and keep trying!
“The Pitt has achieved 13 consecutive weeks of growth, with each episode’s night-of total outperforming the one before it.”
And THIS is why weekly drops + the time to allow for word of mouth viewership matters.
A shame Eggers gets flack for his fealty to "historical accuracy" when he's practically the only one of note doing it in Hollywood.
Most everyone else leans towards the Ridley Scott "screw historians" camp. It's very refreshing to see a guy who cares.
While I’m on my child rights rant- in Idaho, parents can deny necessary healthcare to their children so long as they practice “faith-healing”, even if that child subsequently dies. For one sect, this has led to mortality 4x higher than average for kids age 1 year or younger. (1)
“Planet-destroying robot uses AAVE to affirm the bias of a user seeking any excuse to make herself ever more dependent on machines” 20th c sci-fi writers could never
This is a bell that cannot be unrung. There will be no hosting of Olympics or World Cups. There will be a massive drop off in tourism. There will be a reverse brain drain because no one will want to risk studying or taking research jobs here. A modern leper colony.