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cocaine only makes me eat faster.

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everything feels with so much intensity i just don't want to care anymore

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why is there so much pain in being the one that always remembers?

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being with a man is great until it's not anymore.
you wake up one day and realize you have changed your whole personhood to fit into his life.
you are not yourself anymore, not a person but an entity handcuffed to him.

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i just want to feel wanted.

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so nice to have an empty stomach

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tried not paying attention to my body, but it always comes back to haunt me.

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i think he wants to break things off, on the 14th of february. i want to die.

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two months and a half. we still see eachother. he made me cry at least 5 times. i hate myself.

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i deserve better than this.

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@Fashioncals why did i even do this to myself

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i deserve better than this.

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gym bro and anorexic girl may be the situation i'm getting myself into

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@bellakcal it's insanely triggering how he talks about other ppls bodies

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gym bro and anorexic girl may be the situation i'm getting myself into

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the things that i do just to get validation. i want to die, this isn't who i am.

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ugly guys believing they are hot because a pretty girl gave them attention, i hate seeing that

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i'm so pathetic when i'm drunk i need help

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no music just my raw hating thoughts

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a few things have happened in my life that have confirmed it, i'll always be miserable no matter what

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"you cannot be loved if you don't love yourself first" so i'll always be unlovable, great

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omad + cocktails: feeling amazing

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i lied, i care too much.

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no longer caring is so fun