@Gonna_count I don't have a clue who you are or why on god's green fuck I'm getting this on my TL but you actually just need to shoot your shot at this point because this is mentally deranged amounts of obsession and is extremely unhealthy.
I make 1 cool thing and get attention and people talking to me about it; which is nice, but if I don't consistently keep making cool things then those same people no longer give enough of a shit to keep interacting with me