nothing prepares you for the rage that comes with the realization that someone was using you. like the anger isn’t even the worst part, it’s knowing you didn’t see it
I have periods in my life, where i don't want to be seen or heard. I don't want to be talked to, i don't want to go anywhere, i don't want to be called, i don't want to be around people. And it is not because i’m in a bad mood.
I just need space to recharge sometimes.
gonna go deep here:
- the body very specifically craving both clitoral and penetrative stimulation
- inability to mask irritation, especially in reference to patterned behavior
- craving specific foods and eating them exclusively for long periods at a time
- hyperfixating or complete detachment from people or things
- severe decision fatigue to the point of self sabotage
- sudden changes in skin texture/complexion over the entire body
- change in nipple hue/tone
- a sense of unexplained fearlessness despite having heightened anxiety
- comfort becomes king over everything
- hypersensitivity to traumatic memories, even ones that aren't your own