Silent Trader

[Silent Trader @pakant12]

After years of learning, struggling, failing, and rebuilding, I'm coming down from the mountain.

This journey isn't about proving anything to anyone.

It's about conquering myself.

The goal is set. The rules are in place.

Day 1. 🧵👇

[Silent Trader @pakant12]

📒 Trading Journal – Day 79 | 25/09/2026
Final Result: -$8

Today was a difficult, mostly sideways session with no clear directional trend.

I took several very small trades throughout the day.

Looking back, most of them aren’t even worth analyzing.

Why?

Because there wasn’t really a setup behind them.

I was simply reacting to candles.

Price moves → click.

Price reverses → reconsider.

Another candle moves → another idea.

Most of those trades ended as small losses.

Only the final trade of the day was different.

Final Deal — SELL ~4300

SL: 4312 | TP: ~4283
Result: ~+$17

On M5/M15, price was moving higher inside a small ascending parallel channel.
Using Elliott Wave as context, I counted the pullback approaching a potential Wave 5 completion.
But I didn’t SELL simply because I could count five waves.

I waited.

Price reached the area I had anticipated.

Then I moved to the lower timeframe and waited for the short-term bullish structure to break.

Only after that confirmation did I SELL.

Price moved in my direction and the trade made approximately +$17.

After including all the small trades from earlier:

Final Result: -$8

A tiny red day.

But the difference between my trades today was very clear.

Most of the losing trades were:

Candle moves → reaction → entry.

The final trade was:

Context → Structure → Scenario → Confirmation → Entry.

And unsurprisingly, that was also the trade where I felt the most comfortable with my decision.

So the lesson today isn’t about losing $8.

It’s this:

“No setup” is also a valid trading condition.

And the correct action in that condition is:

DO NOTHING.

From now on, before clicking BUY or SELL, I want to be able to answer one simple question:

“What exactly is the setup?”

If my answer is only:

"Price is moving."

Then I don’t have a trade.

Day 79: -$8

Small loss.

Useful reminder.

I don’t need to trade every movement.
I need to wait for something I can actually define.

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[Silent Trader @pakant12]

📒 Trading Journal – Day 78 | 24/09/2026
Final Result: +$97.89

Today taught me something about FOMO that I hadn’t paid enough attention to before.

Sometimes FOMO isn’t chasing a move while it’s happening.

Sometimes it begins after the move is already gone.

My H4/H1 plan was fairly simple.

Price was compressing inside a triangle:

Hold the lower boundary → look for BUY.

Break below the triangle → wait for a SELL setup.

I took a few small probe trades earlier in the day.

Some ended around breakeven, others with small losses.

Then I stopped trading for the afternoon.

Ironically, that was when the market executed the second scenario almost perfectly.

Price broke below the triangle and continued lower.

My analysis was right.

But I wasn’t in the trade.

When I came back to the chart later, I felt something familiar:

Regret.

I had identified the move but missed it.

And that feeling started affecting my next decisions.

I increased my size to 0.11 lot.

The monetary risk was still within an amount I could technically accept.

But almost immediately, I noticed something important:

My account could handle the size.
My psychology couldn’t.

BUY ~4261
Price actually moved in my direction.

But because the size felt bigger, I started watching every small movement.

Instead of allowing the original plan to work, I closed early.

Result: +$37.77

The trade won.

But the larger size changed my behavior.

That tells me the size was probably too large for where I am psychologically right now.

Final SELL ~4275

This trade was better.

I waited for price to reach the area I wanted.

I waited for the reaction.

Then I entered and allowed the trade to follow the plan.

Result: +$91.45

After including the other small trades:

Final Result: +$97.89

A profitable day.

But not a day I’m completely satisfied with.

The biggest mistake wasn’t any losing trade.

It was allowing the frustration of a missed opportunity to influence the size of the next trade.

Both larger trades happened to make money today.

But I have to ask myself:

What if both had hit SL?

Would I have stopped?

Or would I have increased size again to recover?

If I can’t answer that confidently, then I’m not ready to increase size this way.

Today’s lesson:

Don’t revenge-trade a misse

[Silent Trader @pakant12]

@Klyndtrade Thanks for reading, but you’ve posted several nearly identical comments on my posts. Please stop repeating the same comment.

[Silent Trader @pakant12]

📒 Trading Journal – Day 77 | 23/09/2026
3 trades | One position still running

Today I realized something I’ve been doing wrong for a long time:
I’ve been treating almost every setup the same.

If I see enough confirmation, I enter.

If price starts moving in my direction, sometimes I add more size.

But not every setup deserves the same risk.

Some setups deserve full risk.

Others should be nothing more than a small probe.

And today showed me why that distinction matters.

Deal 1 — BUY 4338

SL: 4337 | TP: 4357
Result: ~-$40

My H4/H1 bias was still bearish.

But on M15, I identified demand around 4334–4340 and price printed a bullish engulfing candle after reaching the zone.
I took a small BUY to test the reaction.
So far, reasonable.

The mistake came afterward.

Price moved from 4338 toward 4346 and I added two more BUY positions.

That turned a small countertrend probe into a much larger position.

But H4/H1 had never confirmed a bullish shift.

Price eventually reversed and the position was stopped.

~-$40

The lesson is simple:

Countertrend trade = probe only.

No DCA.

No increasing size without structural confirmation.

A few candles moving in my direction do not suddenly turn a low-conviction setup into a high-conviction one.

Deal 2 — SELL 4334

SL: 4338 | TP: 4316
Result: +$57

This trade was completely different.

The 4334–4340 demand failed.

Price closed below it.

Instead of continuing to defend my BUY idea, I accepted the new information and waited for price to retest the broken zone.
Then I SELL.
This time the pieces aligned:

H4/H1 bearish → demand failed → close below → retest → SELL.

Price continued lower and hit the target.

+$57

This was my favorite trade today.

Not because it won.

Because the logic was clean.

Deal 3 — BUY 4282

SL: 4273 | TP: 4309

Again, H4/H1 remained bearish.

So I treated this as another countertrend probe rather than a high-confidence BUY.

But this time, I managed it differently.

No DCA.

When price reached around 4289, I took partial profit for approximately +$12.81.

Then I moved the remaining position close to breakeven and gave it a chance to reach 4309.
At the time of writing, the remaining position is still running.

If it returns to breakeven, today finishes around +$29.

If 4309 is reached, the day could finish around +$87.

But honestly, the final result isn’t the most important part.

Today made me realize that maybe I’ve been asking the wrong question.

I usually ask:

“Should I BUY or SELL?”

But there’s another question that matters just as much:

“How much risk does this setup actually deserve?”

A countertrend reaction at one demand/supply zone should NOT be treated the same as a setup where:

HTF bias + LTF structure + breakout + retest all align.

So I’m adding another rule to my system:

Countertrend = probe only.

For probe trades:

Small risk.
No DCA.
No size increase.
Protect the position once the market gives me enough room.

Full risk should be reserved for setups with much stronger alignment between higher and lower timeframes.

Because a mediocre setup shouldn’t receive the same risk as an A-quality setup.

And most importantly:

A probe should never turn into a large position simply because the first few candles move in my direction.

Day 77.

Three trades.

Another mistake identified.
Another rule added.
The question isn’t only where price is going.
The question is how much I should risk if I’m wrong.

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[Silent Trader @pakant12]

📒 Trading Journal – Day 76 | 22/09/2026
1 main trade + 1 small probe | Final Result: +$73.55

Today started with a simple H4/H1 plan.
Gold was trading inside a range between approximately 4375–4338.

My original scenarios were:

Break above supply → wait for retest → BUY.

Break below demand → wait for retest → SELL.

Simple.

But then the market gave me new information.

Price pushed into 4375, failed to hold above it, and H4 printed a strong rejection before closing back around 4348.

That changed how I viewed the range.

Instead of remaining completely neutral, I started leaning toward a potential break of the lower boundary.

On M15/M5, price then pulled back toward 4355, failed again and M15 printed a bearish pinbar.

I decided to SELL.

Main Trade — SELL ~4349

SL: 4366 | TP: 4324

Price moved in my direction.

I took partial profit around 4339 and allowed the remaining position to continue toward the original target.
TP was eventually hit.

Main trade: +$82.57

There was also an earlier small probe:

-$9.02

Final Result: +$73.55

I felt calm throughout the trade, which is probably what I’m happiest about today.

But there’s something important I don’t want the green P&L to hide.

I entered one step earlier than my original plan.

My original plan required a confirmed break below demand followed by a retest before SELLING.

That never happened before my entry.

Instead, I adjusted the plan because of the new information:

H4 rejection of 4375 + deep bearish close + failed M15 pullback + bearish pinbar.

Today that adjustment worked.

But a winning trade does NOT automatically mean changing the plan was the correct decision.

If this trade had hit SL, I would probably be asking myself:

“Why didn’t I just wait for the confirmation I originally planned?”

So today gave me an important distinction:

Discipline does not mean blindly following an old idea when the market gives new information.

But...

Adaptation does not mean giving myself permission to change the plan whenever I feel like it.

There needs to be a reason.

From now on, I want to add a new rule:

I can change my intraday plan — but before entering, I must be able to clearly state what NEW information justifies the change.

If I can’t explain that in one sentence:

I don’t change the plan.

For today:

“H4 swept/rejected 4375 and closed strongly bearish + M15 failed on the pullback → early SELL allowed with unchanged risk.”

That’s something I can review later.

Because I don’t want to become a trader who is so rigid that I ignore the market.

But I also don’t want to call every impulsive decision:

“Adaptation.”

Day 76: +$73.55

The goal is finding the balance:

Disciplined, but not rigid.
Flexible, but not impulsive.

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[Silent Trader @pakant12]

@FXOwlHarmonic Thanks! Keeping the process simple and repeatable is what I’m trying to work on right now.

[Silent Trader @pakant12]

📒 Trading Journal – Day 75 | 21/09/2026
3 trades | Final Result: +$76.86

Today I took my maximum 3 trades.
Not a huge profit day, but I’m satisfied with the process.

Deal 1 — SELL 4363

SL: 4369 | TP: 4347
Result: +$55.75

Initially, 4362–4366 was a demand zone where I was looking for a BUY.

But when price returned, the zone failed.
M5 closed below 4360, H1 closed bearish, and price then pulled back toward 4365 where M5 printed a bearish rejection.
The information had changed.

So instead of defending my original BUY idea, I changed with the market and took the SELL toward the lower demand zone.

+$55.75

What I liked about this trade wasn’t the result.

It was being willing to say:

“My original idea is no longer valid.”

Deal 2 — BUY 4352

SL: 4340 | TP: 4380
Result: -$26.11

M5 showed a bullish structure shift and broke the nearest high.

The direction wasn’t necessarily wrong.

My entry was.

I entered too early.
What I should have done was wait for price to return deeper into the demand zone, observe the reaction and only then consider the BUY.
Instead, price continued lower, hit my SL, then reversed strongly and eventually moved close to my original target.

A frustrating outcome, but a very clear lesson:

Being right about direction isn’t enough. Location matters.

Deal 3 — SELL 4351

SL: 4359 | TP: 4342
Result: +$47.22

After reassessing the market, I saw price trading inside a range around 4340–4356.

Price returned toward the upper part of the range and M5 printed a bearish pinbar.

I took a scalp SELL back toward the lower side.

+$47.22

Final Result: +$76.86

Three trades.
Two winners.
One normal SL.

And then I stopped.

That last part matters to me.

A losing trade didn’t become an excuse for trade #4, #5 or #6.

No revenge trading.

No need to squeeze another setup out of the market.

Every trade today had a reason before I clicked the button.

Not every decision was perfect.

Deal 2 clearly showed that I still need more patience with my entries.

But this is the type of day I want to repeat.

Not the +$76.86.

The process.

Read the structure → identify the location → wait for confirmation → execute → accept the outcome.

Today’s biggest lesson:

Structure tells me which direction to look.
Patience determines the quality of my entry.

Day 75 completed.

3 trades. +$76.86. Done.

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[Silent Trader @pakant12]

@pnl_book Good point. I’ve been journaling the mistake, but not always the trigger that came right before it. That’s probably the next thing I need to track.

[Silent Trader @pakant12]

📒 Weekly Trading Recap | Days 70–74

5 trading days | +$464.63

This was my first full week after resetting my trading.

The P&L was positive, but the most important part of this week was seeing both sides of myself as a trader:

What happens when I follow the process — and what happens when I lose control of it.

Day 70 | -$4.38

I deliberately reduced my position size.

The goal was simple: remove the pressure of money and practice allowing my trades to reach their planned targets instead of closing everything as soon as I saw green.

Small loss.

But an important change in behavior.

Day 71 | +$122.93

Only one setup.

I took partial profit near 1R, moved the remaining position to breakeven and allowed it to reach the original TP.

This was the first real step toward fixing one of my biggest problems:

Winner goes green → fear → close too early.

Day 72 | +$189.26

Again, only one trade.

H4/H1 gave me direction.
M15 gave me the zone.
M5 gave me the trigger.

Then I executed and let the market work.

The biggest lesson wasn’t the +$189.

It was:

Wait for the right trade instead of trying to create one.

Day 73 | +$56

Green P&L.

Bad trading.

I overtraded, became attached to my bearish bias and continued looking for SELLs while M15 intraday orderflow was bullish.

At one point, I also increased position size significantly.

The market eventually allowed me to finish positive.

But profit doesn’t make a bad process good.

This was probably the most important warning of the week.

Day 74 | +$100.82

Two trades.

The first SELL lost -$92.30.

Instead of staying attached to the same bearish idea, I recognized the bull flag breakout and changed my bias.

The second BUY made +$193.12.

That was progress compared with Day 73.

But another problem appeared:

I increased size after the first loss.

Maybe the second setup was better.

Maybe I had more confidence.

But I also have to ask myself honestly:

Was I adapting to the market, or was part of me trying to recover the previous loss?

That’s something I need to fix.

---

Weekly Result: +$464.63

But the biggest lesson from this week has nothing to do with $464.

Changing a trading system can take a few days.

Changing the habits of a trader can take years.

This week showed me exactly why.

One day I can be patient.

The next day I can overtrade.

One day I manage risk well.

The next day I increase size after a loss.

One day I follow structure.

The next day I become attached to my bias.

So next week, the focus stays simple:

Maximum 3 trades per day.
Keep risk consistent.
No size increase after a loss.
HTF bias does not override M15/M5 structure.
Near 1R → partial → BE → let the rest work when structure remains valid.

I don’t need to repeat this week’s profit.

I need to repeat the good decisions — and remove the bad ones.

Days 70–74 completed.

+$464.63.

Still rebuilding.

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[Silent Trader @pakant12]

@Finls3D Honestly, it’s still too discretionary. I need a harder rule here — otherwise “better setup” can easily become an excuse to size up after a loss 😅

[Silent Trader @pakant12]

📒 Trading Journal – Day 74 | 18/09/2026
2 trades | Final Result: +$100.82

Yesterday, one of my biggest mistakes was staying attached to my bearish bias while the intraday structure was changing.
Today, the market gave me almost the same lesson again.

This time, I adapted.

Deal 1 — SELL 4355–4358

SL: 4366 | TP: 4340
Result: -$92.30

The idea wasn’t completely unreasonable.

H4/H1 were still trading within the larger bearish structure, and price had reached the upper area of the channel.
M15 printed a bearish doji near resistance, so I entered the SELL.
But looking back, I entered too early.

Before that, price had produced a strong bullish impulse and then started moving lower inside a controlled descending channel.

That structure looked increasingly like a bull flag.

In that context, one M15 doji wasn’t enough confirmation to SELL.

What I should have waited for was something like:

Strong rejection → M5 structure break → bearish CHOCH → failed retest → SELL.

Instead, I traded the candle before the structure confirmed the idea.

Price broke above the channel and hit my SL.

-$92.30.

Then something important happened.

I didn’t keep looking for another SELL.

The market gave me new information, so I changed my mind.

Deal 2 — BUY 4362–4364

SL: 4354 | TP: 4381
Result: +$193.12

Price broke clearly above the corrective channel.

My original bearish idea was no longer valid.

So instead of fighting the breakout, I switched bias:

Bull flag breakout → correction broken → look for BUY.
Price moved strongly in my direction and I took partial profits along the way.
+$193.12.

Final result:

+$100.82

The biggest win today wasn’t the money.

It was being able to say:

“My original idea was wrong. The structure changed. Change with it.”

That’s something I failed to do yesterday.

But there are still two problems I need to fix.

First: position sizing.

My first SELL was around 0.10 lot total, while the BUY reached around 0.20 lot total.

If size increases because the setup is objectively planned that way, that’s one thing.

But if size increases because the previous trade lost:

That’s revenge trading disguised as confidence.

Risk needs to remain consistent.

Second: I’m still cutting winners too early.

The BUY plan had roughly:

9 points risk → 18 points potential reward → almost 1:2 RR.

But because I took too much off early, the realized RR was closer to 1R.

So there are still two separate skills I’m working on:

Reading the market correctly.
Holding the correct trade properly.

Today I improved the first.

The second still needs work.

Day 73: I stayed attached to my bias.

Day 74: I accepted new information and changed my bias.

That’s progress.

But the next step is clear:
Fixed risk + better partial management.

Today’s lesson:

Don’t trade a candle. Trade the structure.

And when the structure changes:

Don’t defend your prediction. Change with the market.

Day 74: +$100.82

Good result.

Better adaptation.

Still work to do.

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[Silent Trader @pakant12]

@AlmintasV That’s a good point. Looking back, I honestly can’t say the bigger size on trade 2 was completely unrelated to the first loss. Definitely something I need to watch.

[Silent Trader @pakant12]

@blockfunded_io Thanks for the encouragement! Got a little lucky with trade 2 😅 If that one hit SL too, today would’ve been a very different story haha.

[Silent Trader @pakant12]

📒 Trading Journal – Day 73 | 17/09/2026
Final Result: +$56

Today ended green.

But this was not a good trading day.

After two disciplined days, I fell back into one of my oldest mistakes:

Overtrading + getting stuck on one bias.

My higher-timeframe view was still bearish, so throughout the day I kept looking for SELLs.

But the problem wasn’t whether the H1/H4 bearish view was eventually right or wrong.

The problem was that I ignored what was happening right in front of me.

M15 had produced a strong bullish displacement.

Short-term structures were being broken to the upside and price continued showing bullish intraday orderflow.

Yet my thinking remained:

“Higher timeframe is bearish → keep looking for SELLs.”

So I sold.

Got stopped.

Looked for another SELL higher.

Got stopped again.

Then looked for another opportunity to SELL.

One trading idea slowly turned into too many trades.

Eventually, some of the higher SELLs became profitable and I finished the day +$56.

But that doesn’t make the earlier decisions good.

In fact, the green P&L may be the most dangerous part of today.

Profit can hide a broken process.

Another warning sign was position size.

At one point, I increased from around 0.02–0.05 lot to 0.21 lot.

That goes directly against what I’ve been trying to rebuild since my reset:

Smaller size.
Fewer trades.
Less emotional pressure.
Better decisions.

So today’s lesson is very clear:
Higher-timeframe bias does NOT give me permission to ignore intraday structure.
From now on:
HTF bearish + M15 bullish = WAIT.

For a SELL, I want to see:

HTF zone → price reaction → M15/M5 bearish CHOCH → pullback → entry.

No bearish confirmation?

NO SELL just because “price is high.”

And the maximum 3 trades per day rule stays.

The contrast between the last three days says everything:

Day 71 → Better trade management.
Day 72 → Patience and one quality setup.
Day 73 → Overtrading, fixed bias and inconsistent size.

Day 73: +$56.

Green account.

Poor process.

I’d rather recognize that now than let the profit convince me that today’s behavior was acceptable.
The goal is still the same: repeat the process, not the profit.
#TradingJournal #XAUUSD #Gold #PriceAction #RiskManagement #TradingPsychology #Overtrading #Discipline #SilentTrader

[Silent Trader @pakant12]

@herve18 Mostly with my past self. Other traders can inspire me, but their journey, risk and circumstances are different. My real benchmark is whether I’m making better decisions than I was before.

[Silent Trader @pakant12]

📒 Trading Journal – Day 71 | 15/09/2026
1 setup | Final Result: +$122.93

Today I took only one setup.
SELL 4311–4312

SL: 4322 | TP: 4295

Price moved in my direction shortly after entry.

When it reached around 4304, close to 1R, I took partial profit for approximately +$35.
Then I moved the SL on the remaining position to breakeven and left the original TP at 4295.

This time, I didn’t interfere.

Price continued lower and eventually hit TP.

The remaining position made another +$87+.

Final Result: +$122.93

I’m happy with today, but not because I managed to SELL near the top.

I’m happy because of how I managed the trade.

For a long time, one of my biggest problems has been:

Winner goes green → fear of giving back profit → close too early.

Yesterday, I deliberately started working on that habit.

Today, I tried something different:

Near 1R → take partial profit → move the rest to BE → let the original TP work.

Simple.

The total result was only around +1.2R, so this isn’t about maximizing RR yet.

Right now, I’m trying to build a repeatable habit.

I don’t need every winner to reach 2R or 3R immediately.

First, I need to become comfortable allowing a winning trade to actually remain open.

If I can repeat this consistently over the next 10–20 trades, then I can gradually reduce the amount I take off early and give more of the position a chance to reach the full target.

One setup today.

No overtrading.

No FOMO.

No chasing another opportunity after TP.

+$122.93 is nice.

But the real progress was proving to myself that I don’t have to close an entire position just because I see green on the screen.

For now, this is the rule I want to practice:

Near 1R → partial profit → BE → don’t interfere unless the structure changes.

A good trade today wasn’t about finding the perfect entry.

It was about finally learning how to let a winner become a real winner.

#TradingJournal #XAUUSD #Gold #PriceAction #RiskManagement #TradingPsychology #Discipline #SilentTrader

[Silent Trader @pakant12]

📒 Trading Journal – Day 72 | 16/09/2026
1 trade | Final Result: +$189.26

Another day with only one setup.
SELL XAUUSD

Entry: 4298.439
SL: around 4306–4308
Exit: 4279.513
Size: 0.10 lot
Result: +$189.26

The idea was simple.

H4 remained bearish inside the larger descending structure.
H1 pulled back into resistance and the descending trendline without breaking the bearish structure.
M15 helped define the resistance area.
Then M5 showed the pullback losing strength and gave me the trigger to SELL.
So instead of chasing price after a drop, I waited for price to come back to my area.

H4/H1 → Direction
M15 → Zone
M5 → Trigger
Then execute.

Price moved in my direction and I allowed the trade to run.

Almost 19 points captured from entry to exit.

But that’s not what I want to remember from this trade.

Yesterday, the improvement was trade management.

Today, it was setup selection and patience.

One setup.
One execution.
No FOMO.
No overtrading after the win.

And no need to find another trade just because the first one worked.

Final Result: +$189.26

The dangerous thought after a trade like this would be:

"Maybe I should increase size tomorrow."

Or:

"I need to find another 20-point trade."

No.

The goal isn’t to make $189 every day.

The goal is to produce 20–30 trades with the same quality of process and then look at the data.

Did I follow higher-timeframe structure?

Did I wait for the right zone?

Did I get confirmation before entering?

Was my SL placed where the setup became invalid?

Did I allow the market to do its job after entry?

Those questions matter more than today's P&L.

Day 72: +$189.26.

Two consecutive days, two different lessons:

Day 71 → manage the winner.
Day 72 → wait for the right trade.

Now the challenge is simple:

Repeat the process — not the profit.

#TradingJournal #XAUUSD #Gold #PriceAction #RiskManagement #TradingPsychology #Discipline #SilentTrader

[Silent Trader @pakant12]

@propfirmtrain Yeah, I think that’s what fooled me for a while. The P&L looked okay, so I didn’t realize how unhealthy the risk/reward was underneath.

[Silent Trader @pakant12]

📒 Trading Journal – Day 70 | 14/09/2026
3 trades | Final Result: -$4.38

Today ended slightly red.
But strangely, I feel more comfortable with this -$4.38 than with some of my profitable days in the past.

The biggest change today was simple:

I reduced my position size significantly.

Not because I’m afraid of losing.

I did it because I want to remove the pressure of money and focus on rebuilding the way I trade.

Deal 1 — BUY 4327

SL: 4320 | TP: 4351
Result: -$18.38

The idea failed, SL was hit, and I accepted the loss.

Nothing complicated.
Deal 2 — BUY 4286–4287
SL: 4275 | TP: 4304

Price moved in my direction and I took partial profit for around +$18.

I kept the remaining position running toward my original target, but price eventually reversed and stopped the rest for a small loss of around -$2.

Deal 3 — SELL 4276

SL: 4289 | TP: 4252
This trade also moved into profit for a while.

Instead of immediately closing because I saw green P&L, I gave the trade room to work.

Price eventually reversed and I exited with another very small loss of around -$2.

Final Result: -$4.38

At one point, if I had closed Deals 2 and 3 early like I used to, today could have ended around +$50.
But that’s exactly the habit I’m trying to change.

My goal isn’t:

“How could I turn -$4 into +$50 today?”

My goal is:

“How do I eventually allow my winners to reach 2R, 3R or more?”

For a long time, I had a bad pattern:

Winner goes slightly green → fear → close early.

Loser goes against me → hope → take the full SL.

That means my winners get smaller while my losses remain full-sized.

That’s not sustainable.

But I’m also NOT trying to blindly hold every trade until TP.

If market structure changes or my original idea become

[Silent Trader @pakant12]

@Klyndtrade Exactly. I realized the worst thing I could do was come back trying to recover what I lost. Right now, I’m just focused on rebuilding the process one good decision at a time. Appreciate it 🙏

[Silent Trader @pakant12]

📒 Trading Journal – Day 69 | 11/09/2026
2 trades | Final Result: +$99

After taking more than a week away from the market to rest and reset, today was my first day back.
The goal wasn’t to make a lot of money.

After the heavy losing streak before the break, what I needed most was to regain my rhythm, stay calm, and rebuild confidence one trade at a time.

Deal 1 — BUY 4319–4323
SL: 4309 | TP: 4335
Result: ~+$41

Price moved in my direction, but I decided to take profit early.

Deal 2 — SELL 4351–4352
SL: 4361 | TP: 4343
Result: ~+$57
Again, price moved as expected, but I chose to close early rather than force myself to hold for the full target.
Neither setup was strong enough for me to feel comfortable holding aggressively.
And today, that was fine.

Final Result: +$99

What matters more is how I traded.
Fewer trades.
No chasing price.
No revenge trading.
No attempt to recover previous losses.
Much calmer execution.
I don’t want my first day back to become the beginning of a mission to “win back” what I lost.
That’s not the goal.

The goal is to rebuild the process and regain consistency.

+$99 is a good start.

But the biggest win today was simply feeling in control again.

I don’t need to come back fast.

I just need to come back in the right direction.

Day 69 completed.
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