anyone else in this phase where you're not in recovery but not restricting either. counting calories but also not giving a fuck, but then sometimes giving a fuck. not losing weight but also trying not to get fat??
when the card declines at therapy so they remind you that you’ve been losing and regaining the same 3kg for the past months through restricting, binging then purging non stop 🔁
my birthday was a couple days ago, I keep questioning myself why I’m still alive at this age . i’m not a troubled 13-14 anymore, i’m running out of time to fix my life around, the life I never wanted to live in the first place