after i eat i feel so disgusted i want to throw it all up also sumtimes i think abt should i even be alive sumtimes like idk im bored most of the time i have a actual job and stuff but everything feels so boring and lowk want to kms but dk how i would do it and lowk feel bad to
now i want sum1 to take advantage of me and my mind is on sexual things most of the time and even towards my friends i have sexual thoughts abt them sumtimes and i hate it when they give other ppl more attention than me