🗝️🚨TW: This post will be outing abusers. I know I will have supporters for sharing this.
I’ve done a great job of not “reacting” but it’s time. In fact, I should be reacting a lot more than I have. Abusers know exactly how to push the most empathetic people to the legitimate breaking point while appearing to be the innocent party. Now that I’m in the appropriate state of mind I’m sharing my story.
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In March of 2021 - Alexander James Kelly ( an ex fiancé ) and Jason Rowman had conspired to commit premeditated murder and end my life. This was methodically planned. He had paid him to do this a year after him and I ended our engagement, which I was under the impression ended relatively fairly. I did not want to marry him. An attempt was made with full intent of my life ending in March of 2021, I was supposed to die.
I never reported either of them out of pure shock. It was hard for me to file charges against someone I had a relationship with. I was trauma bonded.
After some deep introspection, I’ve decided I’ve reached my capacity for forgiveness and it’s time for public exposure. I have prayed to God multiple times about whether or not to expose or if I should just forgive and move on. I felt it was time to release this to the public. This is not being done out of malice, vengeance or bitterness.
These people deserve to be called out on a public platform. I have done the utmost Christian example of turning the other cheek when in reality I should’ve fought back. I should have retaliated and had them both charged. What I experienced was absolutely predatory.
They both had been exploiting sensitive information about my past I only discovered after the fact and knew where to hit my most vulnerable area. I have zero fear of retaliation after what was done to me. I will go to WAR and self advocate for myself if necessary. I don’t care about my reputation at this point in my life - I’m old enough now to really understand none of that matters.
I believe in forgiveness, but I’ve reached my capacity. I’m not going to be silenced.
I’m posting this for safety and protection and also to alert others of predatory abusers. What was done to me was absolutely coldly calculated. This will not be my story. This person was so vindictive that they had to hire someone to end my life when I wished them well after the end of our relationship.
This is me finally reacting. You can’t expect somebody to never fight back. Both have been reported to the police this year because I fear a second attempt. I’ve been diagnosed with severe CPTSD. I should sue, and I should press charges, but at this point it’s not about vengeance, it’s about using my voice. These are the people. You don’t do something as methodical as this and expect there are no consequences for your actions. You don’t have to stay silent and protect abusers.
I am fully prepared for retaliation for posting this. Luckily, I have the support and resources. If I get sued for telling the truth on a public platform - well then I guess I’ll see you in court.
If you’re reading this, I hope what you did to me was worth it. I hope you find God someday and may God have mercy on your soul.
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