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https://t.co/4T1WkRo3zy

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Andrea Long Chu on desire in "On Liking Women"

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acceptance - willingness to be with, willingness to experience, to attend to completely
https://t.co/3wDPqHIBwm

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partial answer: only to the degree you resist and don't accept them (which is being willing to be with them, a la ACT definitions)

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also lmao
https://t.co/Vv3A9UIVbE

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I am not ready to undertake a solution and a way forward that will materially change a long held circumstance until I have accepted the magnitude of the pain and hardship I have experienced first. this is the core of my resistance.

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pssst... hydrotropes kosmotropes chaotropes. ionic or electric modulation?

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okok so prob major apophenia but: scrnsht. what if fascia and cytoskeleton (maybe even cellulose in plants) maintain grain boundaries in soft body matter, leading to modulable structural stability and force transfer, w/ double-edged pathology from latched stress concentrations?

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the most cool controllable meta-material that can also be quenched and also annealed! but how?

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@photobiogenesis this is me being reductive in a way as a joke that's completely wrong but: we're just ion batteries all the way down wth...

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@photobiogenesis actin being unblocked bc Ca+ leads to deadhering of tropomyosin from the actin chain??? idk

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@photobiogenesis thinking about the powerstroke with myosin and actin, atp seems to act like an adhesive you break (->adp) and remake (mitocondhria regenerates) and local Ca2+ concentrations allow the troponin "shape change"/motion for forces to be mediated

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@photobiogenesis might be the wrong causality but thinking of hydration and its relationship with mood and depression.

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@photobiogenesis you already answered this - thank you! - K+ vs Na+ are indeed different conditions! ok silly idea (due to requiring dispersing enough until the "living state" is disturbed) I wonder if prion diseases are treatable by something that does something radical to ion concentrations.

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@photobiogenesis does this include the idea that proteins have different structure and function under different ambient electric conditions? (different solvents essentially, compartments of different majority ions)

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@photobiogenesis i wonder if this lines up with mobile vs. immobile (micromechanical properties) - flexy phospholipid bilayer vs. something having more saturated fatty acids in the case of things requiring structure. although there's i guess energy density for storage

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Simone!!!! May we hold hands with God through this gap of intermolecular electronic repulsion!!!!

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have had a pet theory about brains (platonic and metaphorical senses). I don't think this is by any means original or correct but have thought that general intelligence requires biologically analogous long gestative and developmental processes that set up a base and then shape it

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it's hard some days not to feel a little bit claustrophobic from the sense of abstraction blanketing both every action and sensation, things just barely out of reach. the alternative is a dry and reductive character, an 'is this all there is'

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@photobiogenesis would something like hyaluronic acid work?

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@livgorton Cate(gory) (kate or katya). Trace. Cayley. Genna(rator), Prince(ipal ideal, PCA). Uni(ty) (pronounced yuni)

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@livgorton Eris, short for (A)Eris(thmetic)! Or, to double up on full video game nerd, Aerith. Pauly/Pauli/Pauletta, for pauly(gon). Constance, because well, constant! Correy(lation). Vera/Vara(iance)

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woarkshop requoires accessible stowage for tools

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I've started a questions document of any and all questions (updated on a daily basis) that helps keep track of threads I want to explore! A few things that feel important to note down are: why I'm asking, potential leads, answers (over time, a dialectic), and confusions.

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How do you shape your physical space in ways that act as a multiplier to your creative pursuits?

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change inner language + identity, address inner and outer critic. aim compassion @ self and others. gratitude. yes, and with others 2. healing found in relationships besides romantic ones. love and be loved by your friends. witness, learn from, teach, and coprocess. all important

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What does self-reparenting look like? Can someone heal alone? What are the parts that can be healed alone vs. in relationship?

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partial partial answer: and then when you've been with them long enough, you can "process" them into a decision about or a response for the situation that begat them. ignoring them drains the fire of your life!

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partial answer: only to the degree you resist and don't accept them (which is being willing to be with them, a la ACT definitions)

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dostoevsky: Your worst sin is that you have destroyed and betrayed yourself for nothing.

feeling some grief tonight about growing up. want to do more.

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my cousin abroad says "[what you rehearse about the past pins you there]", and we've talked about a present-future orientation. a fic ive been reading upholds imagination as the root of change. reading is important in that what you expose yourself to shapes what is possible

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https://t.co/Hu8PTBqGSS
imagination can be used maladaptively, and you can dream up a life sating you just enough to waste you. don't condition being alive on a dream. still dream, but test and poke reality too to see how it reveals where you might find what you want.

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long time creative high school friend who I'm inspired by who is dead-set on her artistic pursuits:
"[you can worry about the future later, you can worry about the outcomes of your creative activity later. just do it.]".

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low supply? (of atp or O2?) only enough for repolarization. high enough supply? projection/growth. gradients of supply? dendritic path finding / network steering. idk. fake news, spitballing, confabulation, imagination

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smth smth vasocomputation: local smooth muscle prevents or allows the movement of dendrites to lock or change the electro-iono-acoustic properties of the brain resonator computer.. modulate blood flow => modulate metabolic supply (ctd.)