i hate feeling like this i hate eating i hate not counting calories i hate feeling full i hate myself i hate not having control over every single thing in my life i hate my ed i hate the thought of recovery i just want to disappear
im not the best at anything and i cant even be the skinniest cause i cant keep my mouth shut like if i rlly was that desperate to be skinny i wouldnt be stuffing my face at the slightest inconvenience