Because you’re being a performative, materialistic little goycuck. Get a hobby, make art, go on a track day and drive fast enough to make your heart skip a beat, get a motorcycle even if you don’t know how to ride it, go find a mountain and try to climb as high as you can, go to the beach and walk in one direction until you don’t even know what zip code you’re in, find a meadow and lay in the grass and think about absolutely nothing, go into the woods and make a fire, get a mountain bike and ride a trail you know you have no business riding, next time you’re out and see a girl you know is out of your league just go up to her and say some random bullshit it doesn’t matter what. DO something nigga.