I want to text you all the time and see how you're doing, but I know I can't because deep down I know it won't change anything. It sucks because I thought things were going so well, but then one day came and everything changed and now I'm up at 2 am wondering how and why everything went wrong and what I did. Why I wasn't good enough for you. I find myself looking at old texts and pictures and I remember how happy I was and how happy we were. And all I can do is question how I ended up here, without you.