Rachel

loss mom 👼 👼 👼 && engineer @duosec && cs grad student @gtomscs

[Rachel @rachiebytes]

Rhone Willow Bentley entered and left the world at 4:29pm on June 20, 2022. She was 8 inches tall and weighed 220 grams. She lived in my womb for 18 weeks and 5 days.

I want the entire world to know that she existed and was absolute perfection. 💕

[Rachel @rachiebytes]

18 months dealing with 2 miscarriages, losing our daughter Rhone, and having to put down our two dogs, Lily and Lucy. She has brought life into our world when there has been so much death. It's amazing how much happiness a furry little creature can bring you. ❤️

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Meet Juniper! We adopted this little thing in January. Her adoption was delayed because they discovered she had distemper. By some miracle, she survived but will have permanent neurological problems (constant muscle twitches). She has given us so much joy after a difficult

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@TheSweetKat 💚💚

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Yesterday we said goodbye to our little Lucy. 🌈 She loved snuggles, food, kisses, food, hikes, and food. I miss her immensely.

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@Gromit801 ❤️❤️

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@rosieintech ❤️❤️

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@LostnBrowned ❤️❤️

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@five_neins ❤️❤️

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@cmcdonaldMD Thanks Connor ❤️

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🫠 I feel like I am the embodiment of this emoji lol and I appreciate Apple making it.

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@jondmatthews @uoodsq You guys 😭

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@bluflowr I’m so sorry for the loss of your little one too. 😔 The grief and trauma from it is very heavy. However, it brings me comfort knowing others have gone through it too so thank you for sharing that.

[Rachel @rachiebytes]

My husband and I will be moving out of Texas to an area where we have access to abortion. It’s the only way to safely have a pregnancy.

On June 20, 2022 I gave birth to our daughter Rhone at 19 weeks gestation. The 24 hours leading up to her birth I was hemorrhaging. I was

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would have happened if the timeline was different? It’s difficult to live through the trauma of birthing my dead child. I would have given my life for her to live. I want her to have siblings and I so badly want to be a mama to an earth side baby. But I can’t do that if I’m dead.

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gestation which means there was literally nothing that could be done to save her. My life was the only one on the line. The abruption slowly deprived her of oxygen until her heart beat for the last time. I am lucky that I went into labor and pushed her out when did. But what

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stopped breathing on Saturday. I thought she died in the car on the way to the emergency vet. We got there, they did CPR, and stabilized her. She showed improvements and came home with us today. I’m feeling very thankful for this extended amount of time I have with her. ❤️

[Rachel @rachiebytes]

In May we had to put our dog Lily down. In June we lost our daughter, Rhone, to cervical insufficiency and a placental abruption. That same week our dog Lucy started having seizures. We put her on anticonvulsants this past week, she had a severe reaction and

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Packed up Rhone’s belongings today. 💕 All those items represent a future that no longer exists and it’s difficult to process.

[Rachel @rachiebytes]

The best advice I’ve been given this week is - you just have to make it through the next 5 minutes, when things feel impossible just focus on getting through 5 minutes.