I hope I marry a man who sees me as a blessing. A man whose biggest fear is losing me. A man who is gentle with me. A man who will be obsessed with me for decades, like when he wakes up in the morning, sees me with wrinkles and gray hair, but still falls for me all over again.
Unfortunately, i don't like nonchalant men. Be dominant. Check on me. Be affectionate. Tell me im gorgeous. Plan dates. Buy me flowers. Be absolutely obsessed with me
Do not let people gaslight you into thinking that duality does not exist. You can be grateful and annoyed. You can want more and be grateful for what you have. You can be angry and frustrated and still be grateful. A lot of religious and spiritual gaslighting out here.
i allocated so much importance to people who are largely inconsequential now. i'm humbled by what i thought i knew. it's almost a relief that nobody is mine. people can be encountered and embraced, but they can't be possessed. the thought of it, acknowledging it, so freeing .
The worst thing you can do in a relationship is ask the person you love to pay for their sins against you. To "prove" their love. To "win back your trust." We are all broken, and ugly, and stupid, and if we were required to pay for all of our crimes against one another, we would be in eternal debt. Either you can forgive them, or you don't. But never make it a debt that requires them to be subservient to you. You think you might win something in having that sense of power, but you don't. Every day that you don't just love them with the full expression of your devotion, feeling the freedom that comes with total submersion into your pact to each other, you lose and you lose and you lose.
as a woman one of your biggest purposes is to teach your body how to relax in copious amounts. sleep, nap, take the longest baths with lotuses and myrrh, waste time, spend hours listening to music or watching the stars, or both. massage every muscle until it’s melted like butter, slowly, and serenely. teach your body that it’s enough to just exist, in the mellowness of your essence, drinking it in, bathing in it, revelling in it. give yourself unhurried time to spend with the amber sun, eating mangoes, being fully present with the juicy, honeyed, golden flesh. read long thick books with no intention of learning, just for the intricate, vivid details described. drink it all in, the fairytales, the romances, the exact shades of the sky. this is not laziness, because even when we rest, we’re still being rushed by a million things on our mind, the ancestral, programmed guilt disturbing us every second, trying to lure us away from the vibration of paradise, the vibration of the garden of eden. teach your body how to resist this, to unlearn the implanted guilt, to unclench every muscle, every cell, and to rebel with even more wasted time, even more rest, even more frivolous luxury, until rest feels like a lush meadow where time isn’t real, instead of something that eats away at you every time you try to have a moment to your angelic, divine self.
One of my favorite verses is Proverbs 3:5-6: “Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways submit to Him, and He will make your paths straight.” That sounds beautiful until life stops making sense. It’s easy to trust God when everything is going well, but harder when doors close, plans change, prayers seem delayed, or life takes an unexpected turn. That’s exactly when this scripture matters most. It doesn’t say trust God when you understand everything. It says trust Him with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding. There will be seasons where you don’t have all the answers and moments where God’s plan looks different than the one you had in mind. God has never asked us to understand everything, He’s asked us to trust Him. Every time I look back over my life, I see moments where God was guiding me even when I couldn’t see it. So if you’re facing uncertainty today, remember: God is already ahead of you, in the situation you’re worried about, and still making a way, even if you can’t see it yet.