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22yrs, non edtwt or under 18 dni

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i love tofu i wish all the recipes i love it for didn’t involve rice and oil. going to search for more and maybe make a thread

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fighting demons to actually send my money to savings instead of buying shit

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fingers crossed for tuesday weigh in i’m NOT touching the scale until then!!!!

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@chaeloric for context i’m a hs dropout who has never been employed and i’m on disability bc of my mental health issues. but i’ve started doing a kinda side hustle and it’s nice to have something to do that doesn’t make me wanna kms and will have some returns with enough effort

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@chaeloric ok so my advice isn’t very good bc i am a bum for real but 1. save up if you can, so if a path comes along that you want to commit to you can afford the resources 2. i agree financial security > passion wrt work, but make sure you pick something sustainable for you!

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WHICH PART GAVE ME DIARRHEA⁉️
- one trillion year old miso paste which i ate 4 days ago with no issue
- silken tofu that was sat in a container with water for 4 days
- the fact it was like 4 cups of miso soup and i ate it allllll by my fat self
PLACE YOUR VOTES BELOW ⬇️⬇️⬇️

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eating my dog bowl of miso soup like the fat chud i am

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eating my dog bowl of miso soup like the fat chud i am

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i kinda wanna get disposable coffee cups to make myself feel like im getting takeaway coffee without leaving the house but it would be so wasteful

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sometimes i wish i could stay this miserable forever, locked in my room, so everyone would actually believe me when i say i’m sad instead of counting on the fact i’ll get over it and they won’t have to feel guilty about how they treated me

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i don’t even feel like a person i should have been a tree or a moth

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I’M TWEAKINGGGG my mom asked me how much i’ve lost and I said 10kg and she was like “me too 😇 we’re losing it slowly and sensibly!” AS IF SHE DIDN’T START IN MAY AND I STARTED IN JULY? SHE DOESN’T GIVE A FUCK ABOUT ME MY OWN MOTHER DOESN’T LISTEN TO ME OR CARE ABOUT ME

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update: got a message saying 15 minutes 😔

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update: said we’d be starting in about an hour over an hour ago 👀

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update: said we’d be starting in about an hour over an hour ago 👀

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planning my omad around plans with friends so if they cancel i don’t eat? my mind?

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planning my omad around plans with friends so if they cancel i don’t eat? my mind?

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whenever my mom “fixes” something in the house instead of calling someone it ends up slightly fucked up but she never corrects it because “it works” OUR OVEN DOESN’T CLOSE ALL THE WAY 💔 i hate being poor.

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last post ik its been talked about just wanted to put words to my feelings

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so every time i see completely reasonable posts about recovery, it kinda just upsets me and accomplishes nothing. because when you look like me “recovering” is what i’m doing right now.

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developing a restrictive ed when you’re overweight/obese is bad in a unique way because nearly everyone wants you to. you end up in a unique position where there’s almost nothing you can say that will make people concerned. and that means, at least for me, there’s (cont’d)

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nothing anyone can say to convince me to stop being restrictive. i should hate my body, it’s disgusting. i should define myself by my weight, everyone else does. i should feel guilty about eating, it got me here. i can’t lose it slowly, i want to be human again. (cont’d)

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wait i need to make summer rolls again 🤤