when you randomly cry because you still get flashbacks from your past, knowing it'll always be at the back of your head no matter what you do or how much time has passed.
lately, it feels draining. no amount of rest can suffice this tiredness. but I know that this day will pass like other days. I just need to hang on to see the edge. but what I can do now is take a deep breath. trying to swim through the ocean inside me that tries to drown me.