Someday someone will love you better than I did. Will give you everything I gave and more.
But yeah- that’s why the microwave didn’t beep (though I’m sorry for the coffee grinder). Why the toilet and the sinks were scrubbed. Why the meals were often prepared, why dishes were-
“what kind of people do you like?” well, those who pay close attention to the details in the stories i tell them. those that can quickly pick up on changes in my behaviors, voice tone, and facial expressions are my favorites.
One of the most unrecognized achievements in life is finding a stable, safe love when all you knew growing up was chaos. The love you can count on, the love you wake up in the middle of the night and laugh with, the love who feels like home.
Be genuinely interested in people, especially those you care about. Ask more questions, check in on them regularly, get to know how they really are. Like a garden, a relationship can only grow when they are tended to regularly.
when you realize you're not the same overachieving and enthusiastic top student because a lot happened and now you're barely keeping yourself together.
stop abusing your body and your mind and start respecting yourself. stop entertaining people who don’t care about you. stop filling your body with unhealthy things. stop watching and listening things that can’t help you or empower you or at least make you feel better.
the way i value people makes me wish i had someone like me in my life. sometimes , i long for the same appreciation and understanding i give others. the way i care, treat, and love the people around me makes me hope i could meet someone exactly like me.
its unfair no? we were doing our best to make them special, treat them good and gave them assurance. We treat them the way they deserve but in the end, all they give is heartache, betrayal, ungrateful, plasticity and even questioning your worth.
let’s talk abt how tiring it is to meet new people, introducing urself again, cracking old jokes, narrating old experiences, saying an overly used sweet phrases, opening ur scars again, giving nicknames, making memories, sharing ur fave music and darkest secrets and kinks w sum1,
u must give urself permission to move forward, to let go, to believe in the fact that u deserve to be loved by someone who will look at u and know that u are enough. bcs if there is one thing life has taught me, it is that love, genuine love, should never make you feel
honestly, if u know how difficult and how long it took some people to recover their peace of mind and happiness, you'll understand why they shut all doors at any slight discovery of toxicity, and also why they can be so picky about who they allow in their lives.
you know what’s beautiful? your soul chose your body and your face and your mind to exist in this plane of existence and experience this life. your soul loved your body and mind so much that it wanted to know what it was like to be you for it’s own expansion.
i swear to you when i turned 25 i felt my brain click into place. eye contact felt longer, time felt slower & simultaneously faster. memories created were more vivid. interactions were more intentional. before 25, i was just doing shit to do it. it’s a blur, i couldn’t tell you.