i'm gonna be so honest... i'm so much happier when i'm starving myself, like i can actually engage in my hobbies, feel more confident, and i hate myself less. otherwise i'm just falling into depressive episodes, ghosting everyone, and fucking up every other aspect of my life
“ur gonna lose ur period!”, “ur heart can stop!”, “ur hairs gonna fall out!”, “u can d!e!”, ur gonna develop blah blah blah”.. did it ever occur to you that im fully aware but i just do not care
eight months wasted!! 2026 was supposed to be a good year but i havent achieved anything. im so afraid of change and failure that i've wasted years and years of my life