I’ve been trading for 9 years loosing every time - finally made it to $1M+ and ... LOST IT ALL AGAIN
Started from zero: depression, debt, and unemployment, trading from dormitory room.
I’m finishing a thread on my story: the failures, the wins, and what helped me not to give up
But to be honest, seeing whales and big CT accounts blow up made me wonder IF MY STORY MATTERS AT ALL.
$1M seems less significant these days.
Could it be really helpful to someone? Or is it just another "ahhh, whatever..."?
This is my 5th+ full roundtrip, but I still don't give up
9 years of equity ATHs I wasn’t ready to carry, I made $1.2M and lost it all
A week ago, I recover $130k equity, and yesterday I lost everything again on this liquidation event
I trade crypto since late 2016, starting from nothing. I fought through long depressions, I didn't have a job, couldn't pay off my debts - my whole life was breaking into pieces...
And I kept finding the strength to try again. If our stories rhyme, I believe you’ll make it too.
I’m writing a very personal thread from my 2022-2025 trading journal - real wins and losses, depression, mental health tools, and how to come back after you think it’s over
Like if you want to know more about my story + follow so you don’t miss it (I hope it may be helpful for someone struggling right now)
If you or a friend need helplines these days, check my pinned🙏
Macro thesis for the upcoming food shock🌾
The Catalyst: War with Iran > Strait of Hormuz closed > Oil $100+ > Severe fertilizer shortages
Global agriculture will take a massive hit, but my main asymmetric bet is Sugar
Sugar's total "Mcap" is ~$80B, but its Circulating Supply (warehouse stock) is only ~$17B
When oil spikes, mills will immediately pivot from sugar to bioethanol. This can evaporate ~10M tons ($4.5B) from the physical market in month
Food corps will be forced to market buy futures at any price just to secure inventory. With a tiny free float and thin liquidity, this supply shock easily sends Sugar +20-30% in weeks
@zerohedge The Wall Street Journal and Reuters say Claude was present on classified systems via Palantir, but they don’t show it was used to kill anyone - more likely it helped with data analysis or intelligence support, not a killchain.
Metals move when risk becomes measurable.
Nothing dramatic has happened but the probability distribution shifted. Hormuz is even a variable now and capital adjusts, not panic, just allocation. Oil carries a premium before events confirm it and that premium does not stay in oil, it flows into inflation expectations, policy constraints, the price of liquidity. Gold is not pricing war, it is pricing uncertainty. Right now the market is paying for probability.