Cuz I'm using this to document my thoughts publicly so I can reduce the gap between my actual inner thoughts and filtered outer expression and be more authentic..
Oh and also...I need to fucking TALK! I've forgotten how to talk😭
Terrifying realization I had today: Kids (and some adults too) in Asian fandoms GENUINELY lose sleep over drama of their fav celebrities. They have strong parasocial relationships with said celebrities & that's their whole life.
And here I thought I was mentally unstable!
You should look back on your embarrassing past selves with an urge to wrap them up in the most comforting hug imaginable, not with condescending resentment