kiera

20
- ocd + autism • trans

[kiera @rxtt742]

Not transfem btw im sorry i make it so unclear i forget half the time theres 0 context in my bio at all. I just use a girl name bc I just feel worse using a mens one pre medical. I was socially transitioned about 2 years as a teen and it just kindof felt painful

[kiera @rxtt742]

@fairywrennn Yeah i think its def nuanced. Maybe they are depressed bc you can smile and laugh at school and still have it, maybe they arent but still struggling and want the support/astentiojn but their friends make them happy during the day, thats always a good thing

[kiera @rxtt742]

I feel so stupid bc I gen dont understand.. like is it a wanting attention/care thing?

[Emma🌂💜 Amethyst of 🏚️twt @ed3mm4]

im sorry?

[dan and phil intern⁷ IS MEETING DNP @boyz_with_phun]

i’m so serious if generative ai ceased to exist tomorrow, nothing in my life would change except for the fact that i’d be less pissed off and frustrated and that most of the apps i use would start working properly again lmfao

[Gregory Conti @GregoryConti19]

I don't understand why more people don't find it viscerally awful to live in a world where all text, images, and music are no longer produced by human beings. This is an existential change that causes me sorrow every waking moment.

[kiera @rxtt742]

@XLumivras I made an attempt to style it haha but thank you :)

[kiera @rxtt742]

My current Fucked Up hair.. I cut a random chunk off and its given me the worlds ugliest 'fringe' ik trying to work with it 😭

[kiera @rxtt742]

I guess my issue was later in life i was gen extremly depressed in hgihschool. Sat in toilets for lunch bc i had no friends, would only come in certain days before leaving. Couldnt focus at all so id fail exams depressed. So it makes it hard to relate from that end

[kiera @rxtt742]

@st4rve4pines I hoped maybe it would make me more interesting or something. I always had ocd tendencies as a kid and severe skin picking but my full blown disorder only kicked in at 14. dont want to shame kids for thinking like this at all, just hard to understand from an adult perspective ig

[kiera @rxtt742]

@st4rve4pines Tbf I think its maybe a common teenage expereince to have a struggle that isnt quite taken as seriously as you wished and it manifests in something like this. I remember struggling with god knows what at that age but trying to act like I had ocd or something

[uke skywalker @1918friends]

having ocd is like having a million final destination like visions every day

[quincynomics @quincynomics]

Having OCD is like having the stereotypical Bluesky user that thinks using twitter makes you a fascist and eating animals makes you a rapist living alongside you in your head 24/7

[kiera @rxtt742]

And i live for most part percieved as a girl and then i stick my dysphoria posting on here anyway cus idrc. Ill update my name when my voice drops i guess or i out myself irl

[kiera @rxtt742]

Not transfem btw im sorry i make it so unclear i forget half the time theres 0 context in my bio at all. I just use a girl name bc I just feel worse using a mens one pre medical. I was socially transitioned about 2 years as a teen and it just kindof felt painful

[kiera @rxtt742]

Also feel free to laugh at me. i got propionate vials instead of cypionate. Its still useable just only in 0.07ml daily injections 🫠 stupid expensive mistake but jts fine bc its not like I cant do anything with it at all

[kiera @rxtt742]

I keep putting it off and a part of me thinks I will die before I ever start bc I think I will die quite soon and if I only have a couple years why put my loved ones through the stress and also I live in the 200 year surgery waitlist area so im fucked regardless

[kiera @rxtt742]

Starting diy soon maybe i got all the stuff to do it just have to commit at some point. Idk if I ever will

[kiera @rxtt742]

@n0carr0ts Im so sorry. I hope you are ok and safe for real. You sent me the kindest message encouraging me to recover and i wish and hope that can be the same for you too 🫂

[kiera @rxtt742]

Having my worst binge in a minute I cant actually remember the last time it was this bad.. rip

[kiera @rxtt742]

@GRAVEUNDOING She's adorable!!

[kiera @rxtt742]

Ive lost my tape measure for like a month and its stressing me the fuck out